Escapism

Tis the season for escapism indeed. I have since yesterday gotten over the nostalgic guilt (ie. guilt for things waaaaay in the past, and have been since resolved) and i credit that to escapism. It's great. Makes your pains go away for a while, then you realize, later that you just weren't paying attention to them. It's cool.

In any case, i'll try to limit the complaining and the "WOE BETIDE ME I'M MELTING" talk. (WOE BETIDE ME I'M DYING) I only just realized how much people value Easter. They wake up in the morn at 6 (6!) just to prepare to go to various venues at various times. What commitment! I doubt i'd do that just to go to some Easter Show. What a show that must be.

And maybe, when i stop feeling remorse and regret, i'll go draw something. I don't know what, and i don't know when, but i will. And also finish writing those articles that i promised to myself to write. Which i haven't. Yet. (I WILL write them)

As for "sensationalist" that can go to Hell and back through Dante's Inferno. (Sensationalist journalists are imprisoned in Dante's Inferno, btw) It burns out too quickly and while i can lie very well, i'm not going to because that would just confuse everyone everything and everytime. Maybe.

The most sensationalist thing i can think of is denouncing sensationalism and religion, rationalising both, and complaining about my life. (Okay, the last bit was just me complaining about complaining {about complaining?})

I also hate the s => z conversion for Americans. Bloody Americans. EVERYBODY HATES YOU BLOODY AMERICANS. Well, maybe not, but still.

Hoping you have a better life than i do.

(SLACKERS! COMMENT!)

More powerful than anything i could have imagined

You'd think that you could control your emotions, but i'm struggling with mine. I'm lamenting the loss of a pacer, the regret of having done something (or several) that i should not have over the course of my life, guilt for said things and much more and regret for not listening to my parents more. (Despite what people think, they are the best parents in the world, because they are mine.) And somehow, all this manifests in me being extremely tired, irritated and bored. At the same time. And regretting everything i've ever done. It's like Survivor's Guilt, but worse. A whole lot worse.

I guess if i tried really hard, i could rationalize everything. Here goes:
Insomnia:Daylight savings be coming tommorow, time shift/jet lag, whatever you will name it
Tiredness: Insomnia
Guilt: Hormones?
Remorse: Chain of guilt
Regret: Chaining on from remorse
Irritated bordering Angry: Lack of sleep
Bored: Irritation and lack of interest from my normal hobbies and points of interest.

But...i have found something else, more interesting, but also sad and relates to these symptoms. I guess you could check it up too, but i'm making a note so i can revist this time in my life should i ever get nostalgic. And i do. A lot.

I have tried escapism, but as i mentioned before, i didn't quite work. Mainly because i have work to do and partly because i know i shouldn't. I hope it goes away soon, but i know it won't.

I can't believe i just posted about how bad my life is. 1st one. Should archive it or something.

On a light(er) note, it would seem that this post is also a jumping point for several other things. What an opportunistic kid!

Hoping you can get some sleep. Unlike me. Yawn.

If only this were a story.

Sadly, it's not as narrative as I could hope it to be. But in any case, the world does not revolve around me, chocolate means different things to different people, and i am an analytical critical pessimist. Go figure. Or perhaps you don't need to.

But i can still make my story into a story and call it an auto-biography (what rhyme!) and make lots of money from it, but maybe i'll do it when i'm old and have loads of cool stories to tell.

Today was hot, the subjects were great, and the holidays are now here. Hooray. Everything was laid back. Sort of my liking, but not really. A full afternoon of sitting in the sun on a slope is tiring and boring. I was bored.

Passion is a virtue everyone should have at heart. There is a passion for everyone (including fruit) and for every sentence, there are several ways of looking at things. My job/occupation/hobby is just to play around with those at my leisure. Fun, eh?

For those who actually celebrate Easter, a merry Easter to you. Or is it jolly? I would sure hope that you don't eat them round brown balls that the Easter Rabbits make. And certainly don't make Easter Hares out of your hair (or mouse or mousse)
So have a happy day and a calm night.

The Lamet of Losing Loved Items

It's disturbing. No matter how many times you've experienced loss of an item, it's still as bad as the first. And while it may be easy to replace, it's still bad and evokes terrible emotions. And i hate that. It also means i have to actually take the time to buy a replacement.

And i would hope that people read this and comment because, it'll just make me sad if you don't. But given the amount of followers, i'd say that i'm pretty safe. Still doesn't mean that you can slack off and not comment!

So comment on! And have a happy Easter!

Easter!

Bah! H...appy Easter! Indeed, it is the season of rabbits that lay brown eggs and the time for copious consumption of chocolatey good. Though i'll never buy the Easter Hare dropping brown droppings of chocolate, which is perfectly healthy and good and delicious, for consumption by humans. Seems a bit tooo good to be true.

In any case (which is another of my favorite phrases if you have not noticed. But i hope you have.) Charles Dickens is a very good writer, even if he had a somewhat bad childhood. Wow, i have to many idols and maybe i'll write them down, just to be amazed at the list and to reminisce.

Besides all the writer-y goodness of Dickens, the Easter Show is near, and the advertisements are just as bad as i remember them; with live footage and an Easter Leveret. Though, this year it seems to be somewhat of an Easter Pig, much akin to a lot of people at this time.. (Oops)

I guess it's kinda of the next best silly season, after THE silly season, and for your trivia, i am not going to be doing much in this season of jovial stupidity and blissful ignorance.

Wishing you the most silly Easter you've ever had. And don't get gorged on chocolate...on second thoughts, who cares?

A rather eventful day

Indeed, rumor has it that I watched one of my favorite anime's of all time. It's great and epic and dramatic. I have no clue why the blend of 3D and 2D makes it "shit". To me, it makes it all the more dramatic. Even though it's the opening episodes, it still very good.

In any case, it's eventful because i don't know what to make of it. More work, more tests to bring an end to the madness, but other than that, a whole lot of chaos. More to add is that i'm forgetting my Clarinet lessons, even though it was only a whole 4 months ago! Madness i cry!

The Acquisitive Art Award which is also short for AAA which in turn is short for a day of anti discrimination is something which i refuse to lose, but will probably do so anyway. I have no idea what to draw, what to draw it on or what to create. At all. But it comes with a hefty $500 prize, so it's not all bad. Just lacking in bottled inspiration. (Which would sell for much more, i guarantee you)

I have come to realize that experience is just testing and making up your own way of doing things. It may not be the "traditional" way, but if it works, then you should probably use it.

For now, this is all i have, there is much work to be done, rumor has it. And i have no clue what to start on. Wishing you a wishless life.