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"Nightmares..."

Hm. I wonder what nightmares you guys get.

Anyway.

Lots of work, and lots of math to learn. I think I'm slowly understanding Log stuff.

That said, I guess the tutoring is helping in the way that I'm learning things fast, and spending more time on maths. I don't know if I should spend more time on maths, but whatever.

I sent my final (?) to a friend, waiting what she says but...

I read a few things on the theory of story....short story writing... Yes.

I know what to do with it. I need to read a little bit more, and then I can fix up my story, again.

The main problem now is that the description in it isn't really integral. It needs to be, else there's not much point having it. Do I need to describe a cemetery? Probably not.

Also, DF...yea, I probably don't have time for it. I barely have enough for melee as it is.

Chatting with a certain person I know is...dynamic. I want to talk to them, but then, after talking to them, am not sure whether I should have, or not.

Mixed feelings, with extend into nightmares and...ah...

Did I mention I woke at 6 today, because of one, and then, couldn't sleep?

And I don't think my nightmares are "usual".

Was reading a story with a protagonist which has every single personality trait you could think of, almost, and their nightmares.

Hm.

Hoping...for anything. Maybe that tomorrow is a quiet day.

Marshmallows =/= OOC

"Out Of Character"

Jeez Harvard. I like my marshmallows, thanks.

Today = greaaaaaaat. But there wasn't any mochi (Liars), and I had a sugar overdose, I'm probably going to die from like... Osmotic pressure as the water gets leached out of my cells and into the bloodstream (?) because the glucose concentration is so high.

I have a stack of work, and all of it is reasonably fun, and a whole bunch of extra writing stuff, like...I dunno. How to explain.

It's like, I have this stack of extra reading, for writing, and it's really interesting, and I can categorise my story into an:

Idea story. That is; it has a question at the beginning, and answers it at the end. (Technically, it answers it at the beginning, by technicality of language, but that's not *really* an answer)
Character story. There's a very brooding and cynical and pessimistic protagonist, who still loves his/her mother, and yet it doesn't feel the same back.

Also, after reading all this, I've found some flaws in my story. It's like, playing a game, watching the replay, and watching a pro rep, to see where you stand. And also, if someone GIVES you the "answers", of where your story ought to go, then why not listen? (This extends to my motto for motivational speakers; they're older, they've been there, done that, so why shouldn't I listen to them?)

I might extend the Forgetting thing a bit more, so it's clearer, cut out stupid description which feels like it's there, just cause, and stuff like that.

Today's physics session pretty much set down everything I was thinking about my marks vs "smartness"

That is; I know the concepts sure, but my...writing of? Speaking of? Expression, isn't good.

Yep, I'm getting annoyed more and more now.

Hate being interrupted, and being interrupted while I'm eating is the worst. >=S

I'm like, a dog cross robot with a heart cross human.

It's so weird. Anyway...lots of work, yes.

Including math, physics, english.

Hoping I have time for games.

Ahhhhh. Take a deep breath.

"Just LISTEN TO THE EPIC BRASSSSSSS"

This, I linked to Christine. I wonder if she heard it.

Ah.......

Sometimes, you have to wonder what I think.

I think I'm in love with love, and with life. Is that normal?

Life, death, life, death. What's next? Oh. I have to send a story to my writing friend. Almost forgot.

Ahhhhhh.

^ Contentment, and yet, still a long way to go. I have work, work, more work. And I suppose it's refreshing to hear the thoughts that you have formulated, but not quite concrete, and hearing that "Yes, you're on the right track, nothing's wrong, you just have been diverting your attention to unnecessary things."

Always Mechanics before Strategy. No matter what.

Which means, lots of work today.

And is it weird to be longing to talk to so many people, and yet, none of them are online?

Li wrote on mine: "Weird, but nice in a creepy way."

Ha. She thinks I'm nice. ^ Made my day.

And, I just realised how weird I am. Change in mood over 1 day. Serious. Probably to do with the motivational speaker, sans the dancing.

That was a mood dampener. I was so looking forward to dragging Li through ballroom-esque dancing, and her shouting "Unnecessary" so many times.

Lucky she's not reading this. =3

That's it from me, I guess. I'll get you all sheets, and Iced Trees, you forgot to ask about the physics sheets. Remind me tomorrow morning or something.

Oh, and compliments. Erm. I think I know some of them.

I know which one is...

Elisa's (Probably. It was brown, and neat handwriting)
Li
Kram (Well, duh.)
Kael (Who else writes in yellow, Outgoing (Y))
Maybe Iced Trees.
Aereas (DUUUH.)
And generally nice comments like "Optimistic" and "Reliable" and "Trustful" (Whatever THAT means.)
And "Cool", "Friendly", "Kind to people", "RELAX", "Sasitivity" (Probably meant "Sensitive" but the bad handwriting? =S), and "Good Natured".

Haha. Thanks guys. You're the best.

Hoping tomorrow's just as fun as today. Scratch that. If it isn't, then I'll MAKE it fun.

Math test, and it's NOT a shopping list, damnit.

"Interrogator Droid? What?!"

Harvard, I know I'm not the *only* one who finished that test.. =.="

2X = 1/2

So, X = 1, right?

Right?

Lol. That's what I thought, till I changed it =S

Erm. Writing, writing. Reading, writing.

Thinking, lots.

Not sure what to think, though. Wrong. Not sure what to judge, from my thoughts.

Wrong again. Not sure what to assert, from what I'm thinking.

I want to read more. But there's math, bio and physics to do. Whatever.

Hoping...I'm so confused right now.

Go Google it.

"I'll link you tomorrow, I'm capped."

Sorry for no links today.

You'll live to see how I'm not...

Well, at least, I'm a robot, with a heart.

NOT A HYDRAULIC PUMP.

I AM NOT THE TARDIS.

I am, however, bigger on the inside, than outside. Tehe.

Have not finished reading Oscar Wildeee's book.

Also, I've started writing poetry, butttttttttttttt....

It's not really getting anywhere atm.

Doing maths...

Very annoyed/irritated today.

I mean, first, year 12s on a bus, some of them are stupid, and I wish them to die the most horrible death that could befall them, and and....

Eugh. Also, that............knives...knives...

They're pretty shiny.

And sharp.

But if you use some force, you can apply them like cleavers.

Like, to cut through bones, sometimes.

Or like, rend skin from the rest of the meat.

Not that I cook much.

Oh............

Brainwave. That ^ is some nice poetry material, right?

Tehe. Border of Psychosis, and Acting?

Hm, hm, hm.

Context, context, context.

Hoping I don't have another nightmare tonight. And that I don't wake up feeling lonely.

Reminiscence really isn't what you think it is.

"Much like Satori"

Anyway, nothing to see here, move along.

Finished downloading a whole bunch of songs (161) at the expense of the school. Great, right?

Yep.

They're all really epic songs, too.

Anyway, today I don't have much to say, except:

"Wow, that's some really good animation you got there, for that PV"
"It's raining"

And "No, what the hell."

Interesting day, all around.

Also, am I one of the few people who eat the cartilage on chicken wings/drumsticks/whatever?

EDIT: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=84mkxF32kcI

^ CONCHITA.

Whatever.

Lastly, I do not tie my shoelaces funny =.="

Hoping for anything, really. Oh. That I get into the finals for SMH. Cause Iced Trees was all "Oh, it's too sad, they might not like it. And too cynical."

I'm not cynical =.="

Impatience....

"You could be an Angel of it."

So, I was just reading around, looking for inspiration, and whatnot.

And I find this nice story. I read it, and the first 15 chapters are ok, minor errors with grammar and spelling...

Then the main character dies.

Yep, fine, that's all well and good.

But er, except...

That they die in a manner similar to Shakespeare's
"Thus I die. Thus, thus, thus.
Now I am dead,
Now I am fled,
My soul is in the sky.
Tongue, lose thy light.
Moon take thy flight.
Now die, die, die, die."

Took me a while to find that quote. Apparently from Midsummer Night's Dream.

Is it Puck that dies? Whatever.

And somehow, just somehow, they end up in Heaven, complete with golden gates (no bridges), their dead mother, and God. Goddamn.

To top it off, there a minor reference to the Devil almost taking over their soul or something.

And then lastly, your "standard" death scene, complete with a crying girl, and a stoned brother.

Sure, it's nice and all. But it's a tad overdone. I mean, really overdone.

If it were toast, the toaster would be on fire.

If it were a steak; it would be ashes by now.

Etc.

So that's my =S reading for the day. It's good motivation though, to write better.

"Nel mezzo del cammin di nostra vita"

Does anyone remember that ^?

I do.

I'm not so old, but I'm at a crossroads, so to speak, and I don't know what to do...

Well. Time to write.

Hoping they reply.