And if they didn't change.

Ah, besides getting inconsistent marks for English, everything else looks sort of okay and whoops i've got history stuff to do, and so, not much to muse about besides musing about musing and trying to make up lists of things i'm afeared of.

I think one of them is Heights, mainly because of the "you can die like this so don't do it."

Another is dying, because i love life and that's how it's supposed to be, disreagrding all else.

I will have that list.

Getting Drunk isn't low on my list either. Because it might mean i kill someone (even worse) or do something silly.

Hoping you aren't as bored as i am.

A few things that I hate

1.Smokers! Not because they smoke, or because i hate them, it's the total lack of regard for others around them
2.Shopping Centres. Big, Flashy, and yet somehow Confined. It's all very weird and that's why i hate them. They are however, convenient.
3.Really really hot days. I'd prefer really really cold days. It's just nicer.
4.The Bandsaw. It's creepy and big and creepy and did i mention absolutely big?! It's scary.

Really, there isn't much to be said, i'm lamenting the loss of something and it's making me sad. Ah well.

Hoping you don't use that creepy Bandsaw soon.

Much to my disappointment..

There isn't much to be done in this period of waiting for marks and listening to teachers and discussing new ways of doing the same old things.

I did however get my first first degree burn from a hot glue gun; the glue, not the gun. I figured that the glue was hot, but not hot enough to burn (as always). Turns out i was wrong, but oh well, it's almost healed now, so it's okay. Just never touch a soldering iron tip.

Besides that, things are turning rather weird, the weather is excellent, and the people are changing into something else. It's kind of weird, but perhaps i'm just paranoid. Thus i'll observe and wait a while while i hope someone cares but they probably don't, because that's how things are in this world;
And the clock will tick and the world will go
Over and over, wherever it stops nobody knows.

Perhaps i am paranoid, but then what does it make everyone else if i'm actually not? It's like having three variables, but actually having more and no way of solving things but through trial and error.

It's all rather scary and i have no idea whatsoever what to do, but i realise that there is always one or two in a group task that never does anything, but because they are a "friend" (which i sometimes use really loosely) "we" can't do much about it, but grin and bear it until such a time comes where passive aggression comes in and kicks that person in the beehive. Thus, i'll see how this all plays out as well, but the weather forecast tells me that nothing will change, and those people will never care. It's just that they don't care about others either.

Perhaps i am selfish, and perhaps i am paranoid and all the rest of it, but having a happy facade certainly helps with the daily life and so it shall continue, and maybe everything will resolve with minimal change on my behalf. I certain hope so because i really want this all to stop, take a break, and unravel so everyone doesn't have to suffer.

Not that i'm altruistic, but i'm torn about the statement:

"Weak people deserve to be taken advantage of."

I really am.

Hoping everything slows down to a grinding halt. (No crashing.)

Them results ain't over-done.

They're well-done. Thus, it's just your perception of said quiz. So, there isn't much to be done, except that quiz and to discuss the results.

Other than that, it has however, inspired me to maybe join the forum on that site, because it's somewhat cool and interesting but also a little scary. I don't know, maybe it's because peopla re talking about mental illnesses with other people with mental illnesses and wondering what it all means.

Neither do i know.

Perhaps something will get done. Perhaps.

Also, it has been brought to attention (ha, ha) that there is a score "low" in that quiz. Just goes to show...But, it ain't a diagnostic, so it's all good. Plus, people don't like diagnosing minors because it might just be something else.

Hoping no-one mocks me. (Yes, it "might be coming" but still...)

Ehe...

I now have some grasp of the Youth Group concept, but it never really mattered too much anyway. It's not like i'll be there soon.

There isn't really too much going; after a certain period, it's just a sort of "relaaaax" type thing. Not really complaining though, but nothing really worth noting.

Scrap that, i have this!

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Moderate
Schizoid:	Moderate
Schizotypal:	High
Antisocial:	High
Borderline:	Moderate
Histrionic:	High
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	Very High
Dependent:	Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive:	High
-- Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Information --

Hoping i find something interesting. Soon. Ah but i have.

Things are sometimes too complicated.

Like when a certain principal somewhat lied (or was she misinformed?) about a certain day which was a certain success (which i don't think it was.)But i am not sure whether i'm right, she's right, the committee is right, or perhaps i AM right, and she is just lying/misinformed. Of course she can't say "Well, it was a failure." so...

In the certainly famous words of a certain certain Mr. Franklin:
"Why is it so...?"

Also in another newsletter to parents, is the line:
"Children under six years have difficulty distinguishing fantasy from reality."
Firstly, what is reality?
Secondly, what does this "warning" achieve?
For all i know, it's the help the parents "stop" their kids from trying to double jump on thin air or pole spin, but they'll soon realise that they can't do so anyway. And a lot of kids have vertigo so, nothing too high, thus, not a very high chance for certainly serious accidents. Other than taking up space, i don't see any use.

And, what
is
Youth
Group??

Hoping you certainly never forget to ascertain as to whether your life is reality or fantasy. (Like the next Dr. Who episode; new series! Coming to a TV near you!)

Please?

Now there are several meanings of the word, and i think you know all of them, but i suppose you also know the moral of a certain story to be "you can't please everyone" and thus, that is what you should all live by, including me. But i am correct in saying that "please" changes anyone's attitude, and yet, i find it annoying that i must use it everyday to people who don't deserve it. Don't get me wrong, there is "common courtesy" (which isn't very common, granted) and yes it's nice to appreciate it now and again, but there are really some people who i meet from time to time, who i feel don't deserve the respect "please" denotes. Maybe i'm reading too much into it again, but i'm writing this down so that later i can look back on it and say "oh hey...maybe i do know something." instead of saying "i dunno/don't know/dk" which is a very common phrase used by our generation and it sort of upsets my parents and me, when i'm not using it and looking out for it. But not really.

Now, I'm really not sure what Youth Group is, but my impression of it is some kind of self-remedial group class thing, or Scouts around a Square Table or Scouts actually outside with Bears. Now, please correct me, because i am wrong, and i am sorry to have offended anyone, but i really don't know, and am not sure where/what runs round abouts of the near of here. No, no-one's asked me to attend this "Youth Group" i've been hearing so little about, but it doesn't seem all that "fabulous", to use a word which i don't use all that very much. Thus, clarification would be most appreciated.

As far as i can see i suppose the few topics which i can write about at length are:

1.Mental Illness Disappreciation
2.Security
3.General trends in society
4.Anything which i have to write at length on, but i suppose that defeats the non-existant purpose

Hoping you can help me to understand the notion that is "Youth Group"

PS. I though the event was BaulkoAID because....