Ah, today?

"For all you know..."

Maybe, well. Hm. Nevermind, you don't need to know, Mr. Diary thing.

Anyway, you know my half-thesis last year about how Medicine = Artificial Selection? Yea, well Trukulja told me that it was correct =D Owned.

Anyway. What else. Oh. I was swimming and then, suddenly I really really wanted to play Submarine Titans again. Maybe I'll see if I can find a way to shove it onto the netbook...hm.

Anyway. Went to Shin(g) Yen Yen, or New Yen Yen market, and there were two things. One.



Mochi! It's like...I don't know how to explain it. But I want some =( Maybe one day I'll walk in and buy some.

And two, there was that statue at the back of the store, but I don't know who it's of. So I'm going to guess it's a statue of the Yama, ie; Judge of the Dead.

I don't think I'll link a picture. But one day, I'm gonna get some mochi.

I think that covers most of what I was going to say today.

Time for English.

Hoping a certain person actually gets me a bag of marshmallows.

There might have been something..

"And yet, he did not know it."

So. I need to work on clarification, and making stuff concise, but that's ok, I can learn that.

There might be more, but then, there's a little extra work, and....hm. Maybe I'll start work when I finish this.

Who cares.

Also, JM, if you don't get it, I'm not going to explain.

I wonder...

Anyway, bottom line, I go off on tangents far too much, and while it's good info, and shows what a rounded person I am, that's not what I need in an essay.

Hoping...I feel motivated enough to do SOME work.

Really really really really busy.

"So, yea, please don't try to distract me."

Because...well. Screw that.

Happiness Meter. Start at 0
Wake up: -50 (-50)
Read emails very very quickly while listening to music while eating breakfast: +20 (-30, Thanks for the email. =))
Go to school, annotate two poems on bus: +1 (-29)
Overhear people talking about DOTA when all I want to do is English: -1(-30)
Kwan for Chem, don't do much: +5(-25)
English: +10 (-15)
Stuart distracting me somewhat: (Next time, I'm going to try and sit alone. As usual.) -15 (-30)
Van Loon offering to help me with essays, and wanting me to submit more practice essays: +100 (+70) (It's cause he saw my annotations from the morning.)
Swimming not being such a drag: +10 (+80)
Getting freestyle right (Finally): +5 (+90)
Not feeling completely tired, etc. and hating swimming: +10 (+100)
Coming home and realising that swimming took away all of my time: -20 (+80)
Realising I need to do all this crap before I can get an essay in by tomorrow: -10 (+70)

And that's my day.

Also, random observation: The girl in my swimming class is flat. Not that you NEEDED to know that. Also, it took 3 weeks for me to notice that. Hm.

Anyway.... Yes. Lots of work. I refuse to lose to you, JM!

And. What the heck is up with "N or E"? Don't tell me all you guys have heard about it or something =.=

English is the best.

Goal setting: Because I think I should put it here.

Short Term: Beat EVERYONE in English
Long Term: 97+ for English Yearly Report. Make that 100+

See you on the other side.

Hoping I get my essay done, and more or less satisfactorily, and to him by tomorrow.

A few things I need to correct.

"I'm always wrong. Haven't you noticed?"

Gonna pretend I didn't do anything out of the ordinary~

Anyway, Aereas, get off my back will you? Just because you don't have any old friends who just happen to be female =.=

Similarly, don't jump to conclusions. Or at least, don't jump to the conclusions and hang on to them tightly. Shaun's fairly relaxed, except in his manner of introductions. Other than that, for lack of better words, he's quite pleasant. Similarly...well. I'll leave it at that, I suppose.

Not going to say anything about math, except it seems that I'm the odd one out. =/

What else....Ah. I think that's all I need to say HERE.

Oh, and having said that. Jarita's rather...Let's say that I don't remember her being like that in Year 9.

Hoping that we...all get 15, I suppose.

Ok, ok. I'm rushed, but I don't have a lot of work to do. So what's up?

"No games...no games...no games.."

Due to a certain someone's lack of appreciation for what remnant of organisation I have, there will NOT be a to do list today.

Anyway, I like reading people's stuff, but don't stress, and I don't have a lot of time to do things.

Also, for some insane reason, maybe I'm actually going mad, Connie hugged me today. While counting. So, I don't know.

Anyway. Er. Oh, symptoms of ASPD. I've got a hate for boredom, if that counts.

Erm...Story, yes. Who wants to read it as it is now? I don't. Shoot me an email if you do.

Toan.Daxland@gmail.com

Hoping we all get 15.

Back to Square 2

"So...it's due Wednesday?"

Yea, it's due Wednesday for me, not that it really matters a great deal. Just more time to think, "Hm, this doesn't feel write."

Not really that much of note.

To Do:
English (2 days) (Yea. Working on it. Now at 840)
Reading Moodle stuff for Ext. (No actual work.)
Math Test (2 days) (Meh.)
Physics Prac Writeup (Done. 7:13. So early~)
Read ALL English notes/sheets (Done.)
Mark Physics/Maths (Somewhat optional, but now, it counts, if I have time leftover tonight (Fat chance.)) (Later.)

Yea, that's it.

Physics first then.

GRACK. So many choices! Here's what I have for offline choices:

MTG
Paper Folding
Articles for fun, energy, life and profit. (Yea, yea. I'm a bad boy.)
Other gaming (Oh yes.)

So I have the choice of four activities, and so little time.

Online:
Work.
Optional Work.
Etc.

=/

Might have figured out what's wrong. It's because I didn't delve into other bits and pieces of psychology, like I should. Silly me. Defense Mechanisms? Yea. Altruism? Hell yes. Oh. And I'm going to push more the line of thought which is that they're really really misinterpreting him just to suit the initial diagnosis. Total shift? Yea. Why not.

Hoping to see you on Wednesday with all your papers =D Also, I love datacubes.

Would love to read your stories today.

Revised, redone, redited.

"Redrum, while you're at it."

"Nash's Equilibrium

“Shineba Shinizon, Ikureba Ikidoku (Dying is Loss in Death, Living is Profit in Life.)” - Japanese saying against suicide.

“Discharged on the condition that he continues to take chlorpromazine. Diagnosis: Schizophrenia in remission. I hope he is successful in the future and that further suicide attempts will be curbed, because he is now in a better state of mind.” - Thursday 16th August 1973, Doctor Yagokoro, St. Elizabeth’s Psychiatric Hospital.

She sighed. Another long, hard day, with uncooperative, tense, terse patients. She felt more like a mother, trying to reason, barter, bribe and otherwise control them, than a doctor. Luckily, no major incidents today. After making the journey through the tight, twisted and narrow corridors of the constricting, confining complex, she stepped outside to the smoking area, and took out her lighter. The wind however had other ideas. No matter how hard she tried to get a flame, a flicker, even the merest hint of heat, the cold, water laden wind extinguished it mercilessly. Disgusted with herself and the weather, she threw the cigarette packet into the bin and stormed back inside.

“He is polite and pleasant now, despite being schizophrenic. He denies any claims of being ill; that he WAS ill but has since recovered. We might release him soon on the condition that he continues his medication. It is my strong belief that the anti-psychotic drugs are helping him. Of course, he denies the auditory hallucinations now, but that is due to the drugs. Sustain supervision until further notice, while the chlorpromazine is helping, the dosage may change, if his circumstances and health change even slightly.” - Tuesday 14th August 1973, Doctor Yagokoro, St. Elizabeth’s Psychiatric Hospital .

She frowned, making her way to the commotion surrounding...Daniel, and another patient who was yelling incomprehensibly at him. After administering 3 milligrams of Valium, the other patient calmed down enough to be reasoned with and brought away to their room. Daniel was stunned, but otherwise unaffected. She noticed dark marks around his arms and wrists, which could be cuts, tattoos or burns.

“Overheard a conversation with him and another female patient. His wife left him shortly before he admitted himself into here. Although he smiled while he discussed this, I believe he is holding back his pain so he doesn’t seem impolite. The dark marks could be scars from attempts at self- immolation or self-destructive bloodletting; suicide attempts. Definitely schizophrenia. Fits in with the auditory hallucinations, and now his background fits the diagnosis. Will consult others soon to discuss treatment. Perhaps chlorpromazine for now, but if that doesn’t work well, then the use of perphenazine should be discussed, despite the possible side effects.” - Wednesday 25th July 1973 Doctor Yagokoro, St. Elizabeth’s Psychiatric Hospital.

Despite it having only a single worn bench, the effects of the elements were beginning to show in the weathered woodwork, and a small, solitary sapling to keep it company, the courtyard was comforting, and the thin beam of light through open roof was as pure as the sea. Not the dirty, sickly light inside the hospital. She considered lighting a cigarette for a brief moment, but figured it absurd for a doctor to squander her health while she strived to save others’. After all, it’s not like she needed to lose more weight.

“He has scarred hands, specifically, small cuts on some of the first and base segments of his fingers. Possibly carelessness when handling hand tools, but perhaps something more sinister. However, his background, along with these findings indicates psychosis and schizophrenia as the cause behind the psychosis. The scars may have been intentional, then. Additionally, a lot of time is spent scribbling away at paper, as furtively a squirrel hides his trove. Pathological writing behaviour? Will further scrutiny. “- Friday 13th July 1973, Doctor Yagokoro, St. Elizabeth’s Psychiatric Hospital.

She paced the labyrinth of corridors within the hospital, musing about Daniel. Something was not quite right. She had voiced her opinions with other physicians, but they believed that her diagnosis of psychosis as a result of schizophrenia was correct and that it was foolish to doubt herself. She frowned. Something was wrong, she was certain of it. But what?

“Self-admitted patient with complaints about headaches and auditory hallucinations. Born “Daniel” but prefers to go by the name of “Dan” or “Danny”. Request for solitary living quarters denied due to a lack of rooms. Currently, not a particularly troublesome patient, but will continue observation at a later date.” - Thursday July 5th July 1973 Doctor Yagokoro, St. Elizabeth’s Psychiatric Hospital.

“Once a person is designated abnormal, all of his other behaviours and characteristics are coloured by that label. Indeed, that label is so powerful that many of the pseudopatients’ normal behaviours were overlooked entirely or profoundly misinterpreted.” - The Rosenhan Study: On Being Sane In Insane Places.

Hoping it looks better/reads better, now.

Musing about a repost.

"天知る 地知る 我知る 人知る (Ten Shiru, Chi Shiru, Ware Shiru, Hito Shiru. (Heaven Knows, Earth Knows, You know, I know.))"

Anyway. Found a few errors myself, will post a more edited and polished version. I hope it's good. Also, I hope it didn't feel TOO dark. There was a rather huge irony running through it all that while it seems dark, it's all a sham, a trick. You need to Google "Rosenhan Experiment" to understand it fully, though.

Changed "Nurse" to "Doctor". No-one told me that Nurse's aren't really supposed to be diagnosing patients/giving medicine =/ Or, pointed it out, rather. Maybe now, fine. But this is 1973.

Changed the structure of the "report" paragraphs. Instead of it being 5,2,4,3,1 made it simpler to follow, 5,4,3,2,1. That way, at the end, they don't have to do a lot of work to find the "original" story.

Also, added in the first paragraph which I accidentally deleted in that version.

(I feel like Toady One. What with his long list of updates this version. Might pick up DF sometime.....maybe not. Will. Abstain. From. Excessive. Time. Wasting.)

Added in a word count, which totals 800, which include everything on the document. That means title, my name, year and also, the three words at the bottom, "Word Count: 800"

Might reword things, too. Feels as if I don't have enough description about the physical characteristics of the person. They feel a tad 2D. I mean, I have a doctor who is trying to do her best, but has a smoking habit which they're slowly breaking. An "extra" who does nothing. And a character who by all means should be normal, but isn't. I don't know how people get dark marks around their arms and wrists. Ok, well. Explained it with tatoos. Which were relatively uncommon, but they were around in 1973.

800 words...

Might pick up something else later.

Hoping I don't make really dodgy errors.