Zero time for anything

"I finally learnt integration today"

Hell yes.

Now I can do all of these problems...hm.

Two days to do Chem Tutoring Stuff
7 days for Math tutoring stuff.

That's about it, really, the other stuff is long term.

Moles, concentrations, etc. Whatever.

Hoping I don't get too sidetracked.

どうして？！

"So..."

Well, I'm probably unhappier today, but I still need to do various works and stuff.

23/30 for Eng Adv, 13/15 for essay (Which is good, I like. But could be better.) and 10/15 for reading (Which is bad, and I'm hate. Grrr. It definitely could be better.)

Anyway, that's that. I gotta do some maths and then...

Write, I guess.

おやすみなさい

￥
^ Somehow you get that when you backslash. Or something.

Hoping I didn't fail Eng Ext.

Incredibly unhappy day.

"Stand back citizen!~"

Well, no emails today, but maybe I'll get one tonight. I really need to start writing.

And, yea, unhappy for various reasons, including the amount of work I should be doing, but I'm not, because of time constraints.

I doubt things will ease up till Post-NQE. Eugh.

New plan:

1) Write lots today
2) Don't do any "extra" work, except NQEs
3) After finishing NQE past papers, and learning all I can from them, not focus on science, but instead on Math and English, because those are guaranteed 4U in year 12. Like, I know that I definitely want to do them. And then 2/3 science, so I suppose I should concentrate on Math and Eng more. Means to have a better goal.
4) Means I need to rearrange Todo list, but w/e.
5) 5 stories, 1 piece to practice for clarinet, 1 chem book, 1 chem sheet. All due by like, the next week.
6) Then there's other things which are due in June and argh...

It's like all the work I didn't do over the Exam period has come back to haunt me.

Grr.

Edit: From now on Happy Apple => Candid Fruit => Candid Friend. That's what I'm gonna call it.

And, I finally got an email and number for SMH, turns out, it's Poetry Loving Teacher who is organising it, and apparently, I'm the first one to ask about it. Score! Means that there's almost no competition in the school. Sweet. I can probably venture a safe bet that there's probably none.

What else... Parents read Cherry Tree. Sigh.

And...I don't know if I have enough time for anything anymore.

Was gonna write something here, but I realised it may be a little too personal for everyone to read about.

Hoping you understand...I need to write some more. I know why I'm unhappy. I haven't actually been doing English all week.

Ma...taku.

"Honestly.."

If you're just going to go over the script and change everything, then I won't bother.

Got more than enough stuff to do as it is.

Don't need another time waster; I got enough games for that.

Hoping you understand. (Also, this is a filler post. Ha.)

Gonna try using desktop a little less on normal days.

"So let's make this brief."

Thanks for the mochi, Kram. It was really good.

To summarise, I'm not gonna use MSN on days I don't need to, or don't feel like talking to 3-4 people at once.

Because I gotta do work, because my mother doesn't believe that I can get into med.

>=O

Gotta prove her wrong.

Well, she implied it, so yea.

Anyway...What else.

Today was pretty nice, there was stuff to do, irrespective of work I brought.

I'm not going to bring NQE tomorrow, I'll probably bring *something* though.

Erm, I think that's all I *need* to say.

How am I feeling? >=O

Good enough for you? Yea, it is.

Hoping tomorrow will be excellent. Also, my hands will start bleeding anytime now, I bet.

Kami no Uta

"ISS?"

Ok, well, today has been 1 good, and probably 1 bad.

The bad was 75% for bio.

The good was ISS scholarship.

And a semi-neutral thing, I got another mark for Chem, which is like, +2%. It's mostly insignificant though.

Another thing, I voted for Language and Female one, thing, for ext eng, don't kill me, but I'd much rather write a story using nice language and about feminism, which is really freaking easy, instead of something about Life Stories, or "Navigating the Global with P.E.T." (5 points if someone gets the reference.)

Anyway, I think that's really it, that's my day. Extremely unexpected, and also unexpected is that I came home at ~7:40PM. So that's not much time to do work.

Also, lots of slick remixes of cool music I like.

Magus Night~

Might learn that.

Anyway, I gotta write something funny for Kram, and a nice script for Aereas.

FML. I'm so dead.

So much work, but maybe I'll get thought it.

Mountain of Filth.

Ha.

Haha.

Also, Van Loon told me to ask Srenic about SMH wanting a teacher's details (Phone + Email)

Geh. I don't want to ask her!

HELL FREAKING YES. THIS DAY JUST KEEPS GETTING BETTER. (NIGHT)

Yami...Yoru! That's the word.

Iku no Yoru.

Anyway, just got an email~!

Haha....

Hoping it's a good week.

One with nothing.

"2.5 good things, 1 bad thing."

I don't know what I'm doing now.

But I have noticed that I use the words "Not now, not ever" a lot.

Like now.

I don't know what I'm doing.

Not now, not ever.

But I don't care, I'll live my life one day at a time.

There used to be a point where people would tell me to stop apologising so much.

I wonder where that me is.

My stories are an extension of me, and by that extension, are not perfect.

I don't have experience in what I write about, but I don't care either. I want to write, and so I do.

I have 4 more books, parents giving a half-lecture about marks, which is a little uncomfortable, because I have to maintain a level voice, while arguing, and also while talking to other people.

In the end what happens is that I feel a little angry, and instead of doing maths and physics and chem and all that they want me to do, instead I'm doing English.

=S

Maybe I should tell them that.

But they don't really listen.

I remember reading somewhere that men are really logical, on avg, and women are really emotional, on avg, because it's "inbuilt", but sometimes it feels like I'm one or the other at times.

Gender fluidity? Whatever. (See what I mean? English.)

Also, my mind wanders a lot, so I suppose the 4 books are good, cause then I can revise a different subject when I get bored at looking at electric field lines, or when I'm sick of working on monomers and polymers.

Well, that's my day.

Sorry JM, I shouldn't have...

Looking at the log again, I hope you hadn't have jumped to any conclusions. I'm not angry at what you typed, what you said, all that. If you think that, then so be it.

I can't stop you from being you. Yea, they have similar emotions, but that's because sometimes, that's just what I feel. Maybe it's contrived, but that's because I haven't had people died left right and center.

I'm sorry.

Hoping tomorrow will be a good day. I need to bring my clarinet.