"Really."
Well...
Y'now. Last question, 7 was Locus. And I didn't have time to do the last bit of it. Just like the 3U Yearly. T_T
Well, that's my day's problem.
Hoping you guys had a nice holidays. I Don't wanna go to school though.
Saturday, October 8, 2011
Thursday, October 6, 2011
Maths maths maths...
"If only.."
Well. If I only had to concentrate on Maths. Then all would be fine, and simple.
As it is...
Oh well.
I need to do more maths. I fail math for life.
Hoping you guys have more.. relaxing holidays-ending
Well. If I only had to concentrate on Maths. Then all would be fine, and simple.
As it is...
Oh well.
I need to do more maths. I fail math for life.
Hoping you guys have more.. relaxing holidays-ending
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
Apparently I'm fearless.
"A bit like Fearless Leader? Nah, no wai."
Still listening to Aku no Meshitsukai.
Or Servant of Evil for those who don't know.
It's really... I love it. Hehe. And well. The wordplay is pretty good. Aku => Aki => Red =3
Nevermind. I'm just rambling about my music.
I was talking with a friend I made recently, and how he doesn't listen to music, after I suggested that he should put on his favourite piece of music to help him while he writes his bajillion page missile report due in like.... 5-6 weeks? Probably more.
And well, you realise that not everyone is the same as you. Not even remotely, in the "real world".
And you come to realise that they world that I live in. They world we live in.
It's rather small. And not because we see everyone everyday. I'm all for not having to see the same people everyday. Yea it's maybe a little sad. But I can live knowing that I can just visit my friends, or talk to them over MSN, or Skype, or blogging, and what have you.
"[He] just finished speech therapy for his stammer. What an achievement. You forget that not all victories are about saving the Universe." - Rory Williams.
I'm not sure how many of you will know that quote, but I still think, that it applies to us, so very much. And not by the twisted associations of my mind, but also, on a direct level. Sometimes you really do have to step back, and see that we have come a long way.
I can't really match your post on metagame, Kael, simply because I don't know that much about any metagame to talk about it.
I mean. What metagame is there... Ummm.... Knowing exactly where sentries are built on map X, Y, Z?
Knowing when a Pyro will airblast your rockets? But see, I use the Direct Hit, so it doesn't really matter.
Might as well. For anyone who doesn't know. Sentries are big turret things that gun you down if you walk into it's Area of Control.
Hence, Engineers; the class that builds these massive turrets are weak by themselves, as one of their main weapons is Sentries.
As for Pyros, they set people on fire, and then chop them up with their axes. Um. And they can reflect the rockets that I shoot out of my Rocket Launcher, because I play the Soldier. Kinda a weird game, I must say.
Any metagame that results would be, me knowing where those guns are, and then staying out of their area before shooting them down at a distance. And against Pyros, I'm already using a Rocket Launcher which is almost impossible to deflect: The Direct Hit. Cause the rockets travel 80% faster, most Pyros can't do much about it.
Quick aside for people who play: The Liberty Launcher DOESN'T go as fast as the Direct Hit. Just saying. I hate it when people think that. Cause it doesn't.
That said, it's also just as good at anti-airblast, if a little less effective.
That's all I can talk about for metagame in TF2 though. I mean... what else is there?
Oh, besides knowing that a certain Spy will be using the Dead Ringer. Screw that.
Speaking of which, practice makes perfect. A week ago, I doubt I would have been able to airshot people, or juggle them. And now, look at me. I can do that kind of thing once in a while with the Direct Hit.
I think I'll talk a little more about the Song.
I hope I never have to choose between two people I love. I suppose one of the problems of being (half) human (half robot) is that we have too much choice, and when faced with such a choice, we try not avoid it, and just *not* choose.
But how would you choose? The love of your life, or the person most precious to you?
As odd as it sounds, they're not that same thing.
Really, it's divergence of similar things.
And what if one of them wanted you to choose the other? What could you do?
What would you do?
Of course, for most of us, this requires a bit of sympathy, but oddly enough, I can empathize.
And without going too much into my personal life, because it is quite *personal*, I just wonder how other people would choose, given that choice.
Or perhaps, not at all.
What would you do?
Similarly, most problems come because of a lack of understanding. Perhaps, people will never accept that there is no other way to solve a situation, or perhaps, people don't want to.
This does apply to leaders, too, but I suppose that's just how it is, huh?
Do we live in a democracy, or a meritocracy mixed with aristocracy?
I don't know.
Ah...well. I don't think there's anything else I need to talk about for now, hm?
Just think about your life, and others' and, about their choices, as compared to your own.
Make your own sandbox.
Think.
Dream.
Hoping you do.
Still listening to Aku no Meshitsukai.
Or Servant of Evil for those who don't know.
It's really... I love it. Hehe. And well. The wordplay is pretty good. Aku => Aki => Red =3
Nevermind. I'm just rambling about my music.
I was talking with a friend I made recently, and how he doesn't listen to music, after I suggested that he should put on his favourite piece of music to help him while he writes his bajillion page missile report due in like.... 5-6 weeks? Probably more.
And well, you realise that not everyone is the same as you. Not even remotely, in the "real world".
And you come to realise that they world that I live in. They world we live in.
It's rather small. And not because we see everyone everyday. I'm all for not having to see the same people everyday. Yea it's maybe a little sad. But I can live knowing that I can just visit my friends, or talk to them over MSN, or Skype, or blogging, and what have you.
"[He] just finished speech therapy for his stammer. What an achievement. You forget that not all victories are about saving the Universe." - Rory Williams.
I'm not sure how many of you will know that quote, but I still think, that it applies to us, so very much. And not by the twisted associations of my mind, but also, on a direct level. Sometimes you really do have to step back, and see that we have come a long way.
I can't really match your post on metagame, Kael, simply because I don't know that much about any metagame to talk about it.
I mean. What metagame is there... Ummm.... Knowing exactly where sentries are built on map X, Y, Z?
Knowing when a Pyro will airblast your rockets? But see, I use the Direct Hit, so it doesn't really matter.
Might as well. For anyone who doesn't know. Sentries are big turret things that gun you down if you walk into it's Area of Control.
Hence, Engineers; the class that builds these massive turrets are weak by themselves, as one of their main weapons is Sentries.
As for Pyros, they set people on fire, and then chop them up with their axes. Um. And they can reflect the rockets that I shoot out of my Rocket Launcher, because I play the Soldier. Kinda a weird game, I must say.
Any metagame that results would be, me knowing where those guns are, and then staying out of their area before shooting them down at a distance. And against Pyros, I'm already using a Rocket Launcher which is almost impossible to deflect: The Direct Hit. Cause the rockets travel 80% faster, most Pyros can't do much about it.
Quick aside for people who play: The Liberty Launcher DOESN'T go as fast as the Direct Hit. Just saying. I hate it when people think that. Cause it doesn't.
That said, it's also just as good at anti-airblast, if a little less effective.
That's all I can talk about for metagame in TF2 though. I mean... what else is there?
Oh, besides knowing that a certain Spy will be using the Dead Ringer. Screw that.
Speaking of which, practice makes perfect. A week ago, I doubt I would have been able to airshot people, or juggle them. And now, look at me. I can do that kind of thing once in a while with the Direct Hit.
I think I'll talk a little more about the Song.
I hope I never have to choose between two people I love. I suppose one of the problems of being (half) human (half robot) is that we have too much choice, and when faced with such a choice, we try not avoid it, and just *not* choose.
But how would you choose? The love of your life, or the person most precious to you?
As odd as it sounds, they're not that same thing.
Really, it's divergence of similar things.
And what if one of them wanted you to choose the other? What could you do?
What would you do?
Of course, for most of us, this requires a bit of sympathy, but oddly enough, I can empathize.
And without going too much into my personal life, because it is quite *personal*, I just wonder how other people would choose, given that choice.
Or perhaps, not at all.
What would you do?
Similarly, most problems come because of a lack of understanding. Perhaps, people will never accept that there is no other way to solve a situation, or perhaps, people don't want to.
This does apply to leaders, too, but I suppose that's just how it is, huh?
Do we live in a democracy, or a meritocracy mixed with aristocracy?
I don't know.
Ah...well. I don't think there's anything else I need to talk about for now, hm?
Just think about your life, and others' and, about their choices, as compared to your own.
Make your own sandbox.
Think.
Dream.
Hoping you do.
Monday, October 3, 2011
What's going on today?
"Song of my life"
Well. I can't compete with DL with his epicly long posts, because I don't really feel up to it, really.
There's nothing much I can talk about either, except maybe Ali, but not everyone knows, so I won't.
Or I could talk about conversation, but everyone knows my incredibly stupid rhetoric on it.
More or less: Just talk to them, damnit.
It might be hard, but it's worth it.
Listening to other peoples' problems is always very sad, mostly because I'm so helpless, and also, partly that I don't want to get involved, and that makes me even more guilty.
Maybe I'll talk a little about Happiness, given that when I read Kael's post, a few minutes ago, I immediately thought of a conversation earlier today, and how the song of my life, really is that.
It's just that one song which resonates so heavily, and I wonder what my fate is.
What makes me happy?
Material possessions, sure. I'm not ashamed of that.
What really makes me happy?
Certainly not travel. Certainly not sight-seeing.
Yea, I'm *meant* to like that kind of thing. But I believe that there's something worth being happy about.
Friends. Family. People.
Do you know why I write? Do you know why I worry?
Because they are dear to me. Because if I can make it better for them, then I'm happy. I don't mind what their request is. I don't mind what they ask. If I can answer it, if I can help, then I will.
"But Neku! That's not like you!"
Is it?
Back on writing. Writing is a way to play around with the world around me. It's my sandbox, if you will. And if you won't, then just note that it's a medium with which I can flesh out ideas about people, things, places, times, and really, it's an escape from my reality. Certainly, the same applies to studying, and also to gaming.
What's so horrible about reality?
Nothing. But everyone likes a little imagination from time to time, yes?
I once said that "I don't think I'll ever be happy."
And looking back on that, I have to say, that I am, happy, sometimes. But those times are fleeting.
I still wonder about my fate, and my future, but really, what's the point of worrying, right?
There are other people to worry about. People I don't see every day. People who probably don't feel the same way as I do.
People who I care about, so very much.
People I love.
I don't care about countries. I don't care about leaders. I care about the person behind all those decisions.
In that regard, I don't think Julia Gillard is a liar, in that sense. She's just being realistic. And it leaves a bitter taste, I'm sure. But we're just too idealistic. Sometimes, you have to remember that they are trying to lead, to the best of their ability, with as many people's interests in mind as possible.
Back to happiness. What makes *you* happy?
Will you ever be happy?
Will I ever compete with Kael for post length? Probably not. I'm trying to, mind you, but will probably wrap up here, because a friend wants me to play TF2 with them.
But see, is it bad that I have so many friends that I've never met in real life? Perhaps we'll touch on belonging for a second.
I don't use Facebook much, and yet, have quite a few "online" friends. They're not faceless. They're not nameless. And I trust all of them to some extent. Mostly because I know who they are.
And which has been more reliable? "Real" friends, or "online" friends? Well.
The number of "Real" friends betraying me has been more than "online" mostly because with the latter, people just forget, instead of saying mean things, and leaving.
Belonging: In an age of increasing globalisation and communications, are people belonging? Are people really connecting? Why not? Is it because they've forgotten?
I think I'll leave it there.
Hoping Kael reads it. =3
Well. I can't compete with DL with his epicly long posts, because I don't really feel up to it, really.
There's nothing much I can talk about either, except maybe Ali, but not everyone knows, so I won't.
Or I could talk about conversation, but everyone knows my incredibly stupid rhetoric on it.
More or less: Just talk to them, damnit.
It might be hard, but it's worth it.
Listening to other peoples' problems is always very sad, mostly because I'm so helpless, and also, partly that I don't want to get involved, and that makes me even more guilty.
Maybe I'll talk a little about Happiness, given that when I read Kael's post, a few minutes ago, I immediately thought of a conversation earlier today, and how the song of my life, really is that.
It's just that one song which resonates so heavily, and I wonder what my fate is.
What makes me happy?
Material possessions, sure. I'm not ashamed of that.
What really makes me happy?
Certainly not travel. Certainly not sight-seeing.
Yea, I'm *meant* to like that kind of thing. But I believe that there's something worth being happy about.
Friends. Family. People.
Do you know why I write? Do you know why I worry?
Because they are dear to me. Because if I can make it better for them, then I'm happy. I don't mind what their request is. I don't mind what they ask. If I can answer it, if I can help, then I will.
"But Neku! That's not like you!"
Is it?
Back on writing. Writing is a way to play around with the world around me. It's my sandbox, if you will. And if you won't, then just note that it's a medium with which I can flesh out ideas about people, things, places, times, and really, it's an escape from my reality. Certainly, the same applies to studying, and also to gaming.
What's so horrible about reality?
Nothing. But everyone likes a little imagination from time to time, yes?
I once said that "I don't think I'll ever be happy."
And looking back on that, I have to say, that I am, happy, sometimes. But those times are fleeting.
I still wonder about my fate, and my future, but really, what's the point of worrying, right?
There are other people to worry about. People I don't see every day. People who probably don't feel the same way as I do.
People who I care about, so very much.
People I love.
I don't care about countries. I don't care about leaders. I care about the person behind all those decisions.
In that regard, I don't think Julia Gillard is a liar, in that sense. She's just being realistic. And it leaves a bitter taste, I'm sure. But we're just too idealistic. Sometimes, you have to remember that they are trying to lead, to the best of their ability, with as many people's interests in mind as possible.
Back to happiness. What makes *you* happy?
Will you ever be happy?
Will I ever compete with Kael for post length? Probably not. I'm trying to, mind you, but will probably wrap up here, because a friend wants me to play TF2 with them.
But see, is it bad that I have so many friends that I've never met in real life? Perhaps we'll touch on belonging for a second.
I don't use Facebook much, and yet, have quite a few "online" friends. They're not faceless. They're not nameless. And I trust all of them to some extent. Mostly because I know who they are.
And which has been more reliable? "Real" friends, or "online" friends? Well.
The number of "Real" friends betraying me has been more than "online" mostly because with the latter, people just forget, instead of saying mean things, and leaving.
Belonging: In an age of increasing globalisation and communications, are people belonging? Are people really connecting? Why not? Is it because they've forgotten?
I think I'll leave it there.
Hoping Kael reads it. =3
Sunday, October 2, 2011
Maths, maths, more maths.
"Doctor.
Who?"
I can't believed they used that really really old joke. It's been there since the beginning of the first series.
*shrug*
I really wanna watch the next ep. though =O
Anyway, today was just gaming, and math, and more gaming.
Got me a strange Direct Hit, it's now got 3 kill ranks on it ^^
Anyway. There this weird circle question. Dandelion, Bitter, Vege Eater, can you do it? D=
And yea.
Hoping you guys had fun.
Who?"
I can't believed they used that really really old joke. It's been there since the beginning of the first series.
*shrug*
I really wanna watch the next ep. though =O
Anyway, today was just gaming, and math, and more gaming.
Got me a strange Direct Hit, it's now got 3 kill ranks on it ^^
Anyway. There this weird circle question. Dandelion, Bitter, Vege Eater, can you do it? D=
And yea.
Hoping you guys had fun.
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