Ah well.

As i said about being "busy" at the time, i wasn't really sure if i would be "busy" but it turns out that i was. Because over 50% of our family is currently sick and thus, our family was "busy". So please excuse me, but i'm sorry i could not attend. (I'm also sorry for sort-of-lying. But not-really.)

I hope it was fun.

I hope english marks come back soon. Because then i can see whether i got a decent mark or no. (For bragging rights.) I think there was also something else that i would probably not do because the reward was "bragging rights" but i can't remember it now.

Also, Lemony Snicket is a funny writer. Example: The End, his 13th book in the Series of Unfortunate Events which is a rather interesting series because of it's lack of a "happy" ending. And while it isn't as miserable as he tells us, he does have a nice habit of playing the role of a dictionary sometimes. Othertimes, he has a really cool style of dragging out a story with loops of tautology or entire paragraphs around the word "dark".

Yes, it's a primary school series, but it doesn't mean i can't appreciate his work. Also, his other book "Horseradish", is quite interesting too.

Hoping you find a cool author.

Really, sometimes...

I still have work to do, but i feel like slacking off because it's been a long week and nothing much has happened and i don't feel so good, probably because i haven't had enough to drink. Oh well.

Still, on the bright side, it would seem that there's always another way to do something and it really isn't that bad after you've tried it.

Not much to say but...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sib2L6A6xgw

Really cool video, apparently cell shaded, but that is THE video if you want a prime example of cell shading. Man it looks damned cool. Imagine it in color! Then don't because it wrecks the clip.

Hoping you find a really really really cool video.

Obsoletion!

It's nice and bad at the same time, mainly because obsolete stuff is cheap, and the bad bit is that they no longer make it, meaning that if it gets broken, that's (almost) it. So it's cool but it mainly makes me sad. I will however be looking out for certain things to buy if they're on sale. Somewhere.

On an unrelated topic, i wonder how many people hate me right about now. I can count about 15, but...y'now. And please no hating me just to spite me. I do have my dignity still, you know.

I still don't have much to say as of yet, the day was a bit boring, another character died again, and i'm sort of sad, but i'll get over it. Sigh.

Hoping you get emotionally attached to something. Then when it dies/gets lost, you'll have to find a replacement. Wait. That's incredibly sad. Not hoping that.

Not that great.

It's good that the day is over, but it just means that i now have to get stuff done and finish off some english which i should have done earlier but was instead doing math, and oh dear. Is that the date? AAA is due in less than 1 month and that's bad because it means i have to work faster because it's not quite done, and it's just in prelim sketches. Ah well.

There really isn't much in the way of awe-inspiring, but i did just realise that i needed to write another article soon, probably sometime in 2 months, but that's a long time, so i should be fine.

Oh well, lots to do, time to finish it in, and i WILL GET IT DONE. Eventually. But on time! I hope.

Hoping you don't have almost nothing to do but wonder what to post about, and thus, should post. The End. Probably not.

I woke up today...

And the first thing i thought of was "Hmm, maybe i am a pessimist". Moving on, here's a quiz i decided to do for lack of anything else to do and the day was boring and i didn't plagarise; it got the permission of the person. So all is well, except for my appreciation of sport as a pastime, which probably isn't healthy, but oh well. (The thought, not the sport.)


Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions.
01. What is your name: Brendan
02. A four letter word: Born
03. A boy’s name: Boris
04. A girl’s name: Bellinda
05. An occupation: Butler! (Took me a while to think of a job)
06. A colour: Black
07. Something you wear: Balaclava. Heh.
08. A food: Banana?
09. In the bathroom: Bathtub
10. A place: Britain
11. A reason for being late: Basement cat came.
12. Something you shout: BWAHAHAHA!?
13. A movie title: Back to the Future (I really couldn't remember for a very long time)
14. Something you drink: Boost? The juice company thingummy.
15. A musical group: Beatles, The?

If you were to create the world, would you make it a triangle or a square?
A triangular world would make for a very interesting world

Have you ever stolen a book from your school library?
Nope, because i hate them biiiiig fines.

If you were to draw on your walls, what would you draw pictures of?
Probably anything i'm thinking of at that time. I honestly have no idea.

Do you think that guys should shave their armpits?
Who does that??? >_>

Have you ever walked barefoot in the snow?
I think i did once, but it was a looong time ago, and the "snow" was a bit melted.

Would you rather eat 10 spiders, or go blind?
Depends on the spiders. BIIIIG, poisonous ones; then blind. If small non-toxic; not blind.

What if you found out you had another sibling?
I really don't know what i'd do.

What do you do when you're stressed/anxious?
Listen to my music, do work, and play some games while talking to people who i'm not going to get irritated at.

What is your ideal birthday cake?
I don't celebrate my birthday often so...Anything will do, i suppose.

Ever fall in love with a monkey?
Depends on your definition of monkey. Infact, no i won't because that's just cruel to me, the monkey and the people who know me. (Even if the "monkey" is human.)

What would make your life better right now?
To be in Uni, and have a secure future. Else, about 12-14 games i've been keeping in the back of my head; to buy a few years from now.

Anything you would rather be doing?
Playing games. Maybe.

What's your favorite thing to do on a Friday night?
Listening to my favorite tunes while whistling and playing games. Probably not whistling, because my family doesn't like it all that much.

If you’re a girl, are any of your bras uncomfortable?
Well i'm not.

Is your refrigerator pretty full? What about your freezer?
Yea, it's full. But it gets empty real fast.

Why did you even kiss the last person you kissed?
I've kissed someone?

What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?
So...was this day good or bad?

What was the first thing you thought of this morning?
"Am i really a pessimist?"

Angry at anyone?
Not particularly.

What did you dream last night?
Ah, it took me a while to remember. Well, it was just another moral dillema of whether to steal, and i was about 8 again. I knew i wouldn't get caught, but i didn't do so anyway. Not sure why. Or what to make of it.

Do you think Michael Jackson is innocent?
Of what?

Are you starting to realize anything?
"Raising awareness" is futile if no-one cares.

Where do you go when you need to clear your head?
Into the office, listening to music. While scribbling in my notebook i suppose.

Which do you think is worse: not caring enough or caring too much?
Not caring enough. You can never care too much.

Any new and exciting news you'd like to share?
Uhm. I'm a pessimist? Maybe? I would not know.

From whom did you get your last e-mail?
I was expecting something from a pen-pal, sort of, but i didn't get anything. Oh well.

Do anything spontaneous lately?
Having a very spontaneus arguement about awareness and the futility of the AAA day?

Last person you went out to dinner with?
Myself? Oh! Uhm, nobody.

How's your day?
It was boring.

If you bumped into the last person you kissed at school, what would you say?
"Err...Hello?"

What would you do if you were deadly ill lying in the hospital?
Lock myself in a library and...wait. No, that's stupid. No, i'd probably tell people a few things i've been holding back, before i die.

Where were you at 2am this morning?
In my bed? Sleeping?

Heels or Converse?
Howabout just plain sneakers?

Do you freak under pressure?
Yea, but i try not to show it. Never works. I just get really irritated at the slightest things and have to say sorry to people because i'm just so insensitive in that "mode"

What's so special about what you're wearing?
My jumper was my father's, but he never wore it so it's not mine. It's also too small for him.

Are you smiling right now? Why or why not?
No. I don't really smile all that often.

Do you think you're trustworthy?
According to others, yea, according to me, hell no.

Has anyone made you feel like shit lately for something they did?
One particular person who i won't really name, but it doesn't really matter all that much, i just felt really really bad. It wasn't anything serious though.

Do you want to know the date of your death?
What is this, Death Note? On the other hand, it'd be pretty scary.

Where did your last kiss take place?
Kiss? What?

How do you handle a break up?
Who's doing the breaking?

Have you ever used the word 'rawr' in an actual conversation?
Mhmm... Although it's more of "RAWR!" then pounce on the other person and hit them a bit.

Have you ever broken something because you were angry?
Someone's morale, i suppose.

Do you tend to make things complicated?
Yea, i think i tend to think that everyone is out to get me.

Highlight of my day

These days, (for the past week or so), there haven't been many highlights, mainly because for some reason everything's just been feeling so sad, for me. Reworded, i've been noticing the sad side of things, in everything. So a highlight is still a higlight and is very nice. That highlight consists of 2 things. One is the actual day which had a very nice special event which was "serious" but from looking around, you notice that no-one really cares, and it's just "another day". Not to say that the thematic concerns were uninteresting or stupid, it's just that people were not overly motivated, and it showed in their faces. (And in their litter).

The second highlight was when i was in the car and have a conversation with a great man, about people and how they're lazy and the psychology when people come to cross the road with a light and a button, and how people will not press the button. It says X of Y things about someone; how the great man saw it was, that they were either lazy, or inconsiderate. The other interpretation is that they are just patient, but then add a second person, and things change. The second person tends to not do anything but sit. And wait. And so it goes in such a chain until the lights give way and the people cross. And this such fashion reminded me of my dreams, and how sad it was that people didn't regard mental illness as important.

I guess it was another "sad" thing, but i guess the whole world is made of sad things if you choose and no, i will not "stop it" and i won't "get over it in time", it's my choice, and it's not Panadeineinesal. I like it this way. What's even worse is the lack of miscommunication of this day, and the poor thinking behind the "social experiment" used to promote today. Poor thinking because i suppose, they used mob mentality to get the support they wanted which is unwarranted, and most people didn't do it for the real purpose; THUS, useless in the hearts of most people. They tried (oh how they tried) to reassert it in the hearts of the people, but they failed, and what makes me angry is that they tacked on the MOST IMPORTANT feature of their annual stand; MENTAL WELFARE. It's disregarded, and i blame that mentality (ha) for the shattering of my dream. Yes i could still be what i want to be, but it makes me angry that i can't do what i like and eat it too. Realistically speaking, i would much rather get several hobbies, but it shall not work out like that.

Thus, i will see if i can find ways to educate people on the effects of mental health. Just to rebuild my dream (selfish i know, but i WILL get someone to understand.) So to start off, think of it like this. A car cannot move if it has no wheels, similarly, it cannot move without a driver. And by move i mean on a 0 degree incline and acceleration. And i don't think people understand this, because they will say "Oh, but it's a MENTAL illness. I can just "get over it"". THe problem is that they're saying this at a time where they may not realise that they can't just "get over it".

Ah, well. Sometimes i like this longer posts. It makes me feel as if i've done something; or just written down something for later reference on my life, i suppose.

Hoping you don't fall prey to mental illness, find something neat to ponder on, find a passion, know where you're going, rebuild those dreams or find a nice viewpoint to see the world.

Yes, it's long. Oh well. So sue me.

Laws of Conservation

They're really cool because they can relate to so many things. The laws i'm currently thinking of are:

1.Momentum
2.Mass
3.Energy? But that's just 1 + 2 = 3

Anyway, all it means is that something has to come from somewhere, even if you "wish for it".

Suffice to say, weird stuff cana happen; case study: The Monkey Paw. I like that story, and don't like it because of a few things. I like it because it shows human nature. I don't like it because one rendition has British people in them, and that just spoils it. Oh well.

And so, wishes obviously comply within the reasonable bounds of physics and stuff can't come out of nowhere unless...

Seed => Farm => Plants => Materials + More seeds => Farm.. etc.

But that still means nutrients and water and sunlight are the thiings used up in each cycle (plus more) so i don't think that counts, either.

Wonder if there is an exception.

Hoping you have something to ponder and write about.