1,2,3 Let's rock.

"He won't do it." - Kathy

Speaking of which, turns out my mother was somehow right. She admitted to some bisexuality. =O (Not that anyone cares, and I hope...well. I don't care anymore, and really, for the most part, am angry, resentful and hateful. Of course, I still pretend to be happy, because that's how you bring the best out of other people. If you're next to someone who isn't responsive and is quiet, it's hard to see their personality and "normal" traits. Case in point, Iced Trees. At first, I figured you were a little quiet and didn't really...change in 4 years. But after a while, and me listening to you (properly, no doubt), I understood and realised that you are much more interesting than it seems.)

And I'll finish the rest later tonight, because I need to do math, and my ideas aren't cemented into my head as yet. I really need to keep a notebook with me.

Ok, time to start up again. It's a curse and a blessing that the swimming carnival is tomorrow. Because it means one more day on math hw, which did seem a tad much. Still, I hate the carnival, because as Kram puts it "He's afraid of anything that might change slightly." [/mocking]

Then again, I just finished. Yay.

And oh my, I have to write a page for english ext. that's due in 4 days. Still, it's not bad. Should be fun.

I'm not really looking forward to swimming tomorrow afternoon, but the worst that could happen is making me really unhappy and brooding. Nothing that doesn't happen anyway.

Oh, and I got a comment about being emo, and then changed my pm to what it is now, and then got a different comment about being emo atm. Haha. In any case, it's not really so much...well. It's an interesting mindset. It's not entirely dark, but it's not entirely content either. I like it though. Doesn't mean I'm going to inflict pain and wear really weird stuff. (Uniform considerations.) So, yes, no. But it's the mindset that counts, and well. Does anyone need another post about about analysis of people and their minds?

Ok, now. I said I would talk a little about Kael's post, mainly because...it's interesting and reasonably well written.

1. The need to find something complex and interesting and intriguing out of a set of 4 numbers in a permutation which forms a time, is because we are all trained to do so, and while the other part of training is that there's "Only one answer", it still holds that it's challenging and mostly "fun" to be finding complex chains and patterns which should not make sense, but this quest GIVES it that purpose. From what I gather, Kael has skipped the quest, and hence, that defies all "common" logic, therefore, why he has to explain it in the first place, and why I shouldn't be writing about this, but am.

2. You cannot read that and NOT find it interesting. That he's tacked onto constructed meaning for a set of 4 numbers, and which may or may not have been a gauge of people's reactions. Of course, these are just my thoughts, but it stands.

3. A bit critical, but the factorising x^2 + y^2 is a valid thing, if you need to actually do something with it later.

4. I say that I'm insane, and people laugh it off. Makes you wonder how the definition of insane has warped over the years.

5. What does special mean to me? Something that is mine, that no-one else will ever have, and should ever have. It's completely and absolutely mine and me. That's special. Otherwise, there's specialty by other categories, much like how there's significance by value, by name, by possession, and one other. I think.

6. Other random thoughts. The dictionary will give you a nice "correct" meaning, however, words, as long as they have a home, or a context, will have different uses and meanings, and slightly misusing a word would be counted as skewed. Example, when I used "coercion" to describe the peer pressure into picking a sport. It's not TECHNICALLY coercion, but its meaning stands.

7. The burning curiosity is something we all have, and of course, by asking, we make it even more special. Because he's in the know, and we're not. Because he knows WHY, and we don't. If you could categorise the "big" questions in the world, they would mostly fall under "WHY"

8. The attempt to make an inside joke of something, and the icy anger I feel when something I've made, something I'VE discovered is shared out of my control, and something which should actually remain private, is too much. While it's not going to make me throw things and yell, it will put me on the edge for that, when something else comes along and topples my self-control over.

9. Sometimes people are loners, like me. I like to be around friends, but sometimes I just want to be alone to think, to plan, etc. Of course, this might not at all have any relation to anything whatsoever, but I'm in the English Creative Writing fever/mood right about now.

10. And yes, scrolling down, you can see that Kael has also touched on the anger you get when something is spread out of your personal control. It's cheapened, used and then thrown away. It's maddening as it is hurting and saddening. Much like Fnords, I shall note. And Box/Bogdanov. So much so, that making your little country has made it completely "lame" and unpopular in and of itself.

How does THIS little gem relate? Because, The Scream is under-going the same process. It's just about dying, and see, these days you don't see balloons and key rings everywhere. You have to go to ebay to look for those.

And yea, this is just as long, but if you're in for the long wait, why not?

The most cynical thing I could say about Kael's post is that it's his "hipster" thing. Of course, the connotations are far too mean for me to mention, so I will say that someone else with my mind, but not my heart would tell you that, and walk away. I will say, that I have pointed it out, but that I don't mean it.

It is a great piece of text, and I mean it.

Thus ends my talk on that piece of text.

And I really don't have an other ideas. As yet. It's late. So I'll just press the "publish" button.

No hopes, no dreams yet.

But now there is.

Hoping that tomorrow rains. Heavily. Or maybe hails. Or sleet! SNOW. Please, atmospheric pressure. SNOW.