One with nothing.

"2.5 good things, 1 bad thing."

I don't know what I'm doing now.

But I have noticed that I use the words "Not now, not ever" a lot.

Like now.

I don't know what I'm doing.

Not now, not ever.

But I don't care, I'll live my life one day at a time.

There used to be a point where people would tell me to stop apologising so much.

I wonder where that me is.

My stories are an extension of me, and by that extension, are not perfect.

I don't have experience in what I write about, but I don't care either. I want to write, and so I do.

I have 4 more books, parents giving a half-lecture about marks, which is a little uncomfortable, because I have to maintain a level voice, while arguing, and also while talking to other people.

In the end what happens is that I feel a little angry, and instead of doing maths and physics and chem and all that they want me to do, instead I'm doing English.

=S

Maybe I should tell them that.

But they don't really listen.

I remember reading somewhere that men are really logical, on avg, and women are really emotional, on avg, because it's "inbuilt", but sometimes it feels like I'm one or the other at times.

Gender fluidity? Whatever. (See what I mean? English.)

Also, my mind wanders a lot, so I suppose the 4 books are good, cause then I can revise a different subject when I get bored at looking at electric field lines, or when I'm sick of working on monomers and polymers.

Well, that's my day.

Sorry JM, I shouldn't have...

Looking at the log again, I hope you hadn't have jumped to any conclusions. I'm not angry at what you typed, what you said, all that. If you think that, then so be it.

I can't stop you from being you. Yea, they have similar emotions, but that's because sometimes, that's just what I feel. Maybe it's contrived, but that's because I haven't had people died left right and center.

I'm sorry.

Hoping tomorrow will be a good day. I need to bring my clarinet.