Monday, February 6, 2012

Basically...........

"Run"

=D

Anyway.

I printed off my 4U first draft...

16 pages, and no double spacing eh.

I'll play with font and color and stuff like that later.

Probably just be doing maths and similar things like that all day.

Well, tomorrow that is.

And here's the other song.

I really like this circle for remixes.

It's really techno...dance? Though. So bewarned.

Um.

I have a lot of work to do, but I'm not really doing any of it.

I need to make a list, otherwise, I have no idea what to start on, and prioritising and...

I'll do that now, then go to bed.

It's 9PM.

I wonder what you're all doing.

Mm...

Have you wondered whether you're becoming a better or worse person?

Wonder what will happen in the next few years.

To be brutally honest, I'm scared.

Of myself mainly.

I mean, what if I can't keep an important promise.

Am I weak?

Have I been wronged?

Is there something I was supposed to do, but couldn't?

Swimming carnival is in a week, and it'll be the last one I'll participate in, as well as the first in...... 6 years, I think.

Free swim doesn't count, and even if it did, the last time I swam at Waves' pool was Year 8, I think.

But yes. Swimming.

I doubt I'll get anywhere, but I want to try anyway.

Do you ever get those times where you wonder if you're amoral?

I tend to think that I am, but people remind me that I'm not, and then I have to think some more, and eventually I come to the conclusion that I'm probably just really good at hiding the puppy kicking I do when no-one's looking.

Just kidding. Puppies are cute.

And they're so warm and cuddly.

In my wallet is a ticket from Spring Fling '10.

I remember that one.

Why I haven't thrown it out?

There is a certain sentimentality attached to various things.

And well. Important things in my life have to be kept right?

Even if they're useless now.

Even if they're just going to hurt me in the future.

It's important nonetheless.

I'm scared of a tomorrow where maybe I do something bad.

Maybe something....nngh.

Who knows.

I'm afraid that I can't keep my promises.

But that doesn't stop me from making them.

And I keep my promises.

Well, except that one time that I didn't but by that time, the person whom I had promised something had already, in my eyes degraded into something that isn't worth my respect.

Though, if you think about it, a lot of people tell me that... I guess, docile? And respecting.

Though I have to wonder if that's true.

I don't really think so.

I remember from recess that there was an idea to turn blog posts into stories.

And that's a fine idea, I think.

Remember that girl who turned her blog into a best selling book? I can't remember the Jap title of that silly drama.

Point is, anything can happen if you try.

Last point of today, I think.

I promised to make a bubble gun.

You know, the ones that "shoot" bubbles?

Realised today, from closer inspection that it's not air-functional.

Well, it is. But the "trigger" does nothing. It's just there for show.

The air is supplied by you blowing in the back.

I promised I'd make one.

So...

Basically, holder, air hole thing, and ring.

Three basic points.

But knowing me, I'll actually make a trigger so it does something.

Nnn.... I have quite a few projects hmm...

I want to try those UMAT past papers.

Sounds tediously fun.

Specifically section 2.

I wonder how empathetic I really am.

Or maybe, I'm just predicting from past experiences, and using patterns to see what people are thinking, or feeling.

Here's my guide as of now:

1) Have they lost something?
a) Then they're probably sad/angry/mad/frustrated.
2) Have they just discovered something?
a) They're in awe and shock.
3) New illness?
a) Shock.

Actually. I wonder if that's a good impression.

Ah, better try some questions.

I really hate those questions which talk about whether they're happy or not.

As if one could decide happiness from looking.

I don't consider myself to be happy.

Buuuuut, who knows.

And...

One thing... that I... oh yes.

Do you ever find that if you're given a few photos, you can judge what that person's personality is going to be?

Apparently it's something not many people do or can do... so I just wanted to know.

Probing the real, hm?

Basically, given a photo, decide what kind of person they are.

Things like:

Basic example: Long hair => Likes mess, lazy, doesn't really care what people think.
But the flip side is that maybe they're female, and longer hair means that they take more care with things, are interested in looks, and acutely aware of what people think about them.

So you take the entire picture as a whole, and just use your instinct, hm?

I might do an example if someone has a photo to show, but make sure you know the person, otherwise, what's the point?

Hoping you guys read all this stuff. I certainly will someday.

Maybe in a month. Or a year.

2 comments:

delete12 said...

you the man

Toan said...

"Who the man?!

Alright fine.

I'm never saying that again."

Time to sleep.