The beginning of the end? Perhaps.

"If i were a zebra, would i be black with white stripes, or white with black stripes? Hmm?"

Makes you wonder.

Anyway, English test was bad and good. Bad because of the boring factor. Good because i could vent my "anger" at the test, at the test. Mainly because of self-reflexivity which i love, and probably should do a lot less of. But gist of the writing:

"Here lies me. Stuck in a room and doing a test for which the marker and I do not care for. Because they asked for "drama" I guess i'll write about a soppy soapy romance. Because of cause all markers love soap operas."

Yada, yada. Etc. till end of test and then, end with 15 minutes to spare. Really. It was that boring. So i changed it a bit and the opening line was "And here is my problem." Later i have a complication in a complication in a text in a box, so it's all okay. I do hope i beat a certain someone in this test though, seeing as it's a "writing" test and not a "creative writing" PIECE. Thus, my "carp" won't affect the mark. Mind you, it was well written, if i do say so myself, albeit in the same format in which i write these posts. Really.

But perhaps i should turn that story that i half-wrote into a typed version and maybe...I'm not sure. Who would read it? Perhaps i'll save it for next year anyway. And it shall be a surprise. Maybe.

Don't like English, because my heart isn't into this drawing, because i can't draw faces and i don't like drawing things that i have little passion about. Not that i don't have interest, but it feels more of a "composistion" than a "drawing" to me. I hope you can tell the difference. If not, well.

Because the art of appropriation is so post-modern and neat and whoo, I will appropriate this.

Who Am I?

I am not a piece of trivia to be handed about and asked "yes/no" questions.
I am not a famous person, nor do i wish to be.
I am a fan of instrumental music mainly, because lyrics sometimes jarrs the notes of an otherwise quasi-perfect song.
I am a fan of marshmallows, fluffy doughtnuts, vanilla ice cream and a hater of chocolate, booze, smoking and idiocy.
I am probably the most impatient person you will ever come to know, if you do ever "know" me. Beyond the "oh. that guy." "know".
I am male.
I draw.
I write. But not seriously. Though i could probably write a novel given a BIG idea. Which i have none of.
I play music. But it never sounds right to me.
I use imperatives. A lot. I guess it feeds into the impatient.
I wonder what people mean when they said "KevinOLemon". But it's a bit mean.
I wonder about whether somethings are worth wondering about.
I hope.
I don't pray. Nor do i have a religion.
I wish.
I have freeverse poetry to compose. Like this.
I have an Art Award entry pending judging. Hoping i win.
I appropriate.
I apologise. To you and to you. Both of you; the people who i am appropriating.
I wonder if you'll be mad.
I hope not.
I have long posts because i spend time musing about things closest to me.
I write about my experiences, even the embarassing ones. But those who are close to me will never read them. Unless I let them.
I capitalise ideas, thoughts and nothings, randomly. Anything Which Catches My Attention and must require Capitilization.
I love simplicity. Sometimes. Others...
I like complexity. Sometimes.
I think that the world cannot be changed, except through convenience.
I am ReCkLeSs. And,
I can't help it.
I hate being the leader. But
I can talk about a topic given a little bit of time to prepare. Not as good as some, though. And for some reason,
I am almost always the leader. You should see. It's scary.
I could be wrong.
I might be wrong.
I am wrong. No.
I am not wrong.
I am selfish, but you'll probably never see that side, nor me tell you evidence of that.
I am me.

And that is all there is.

Hoping you like my appropriation. (Please comment). I'm sorry. To you and you.

If only, If only...

"You were dead to me the moment you stopped caring". If only, if only...

Anyway, there's History due tommorow, need to print it, will do at recess, and by gosh it's expensive but oh well. I'll fix it in the holidays. Also need to pay for Engineering and whatnot.

Chemists + Pharmicists. Now, I am still correct in saying that they're the same, only by proof of example. The only one i can think of is Anti-social, which could mean two things, the clinical and the social meaning. Social came after and is technically "wrong" but is still used in books today. It also throws me off, because i usually don't expect the latter version. (Sorry for that example, but really, it's the only one i can think of). Also, "The Queen does not use slang". It was from some movie where they were arguing over whether "quid" is a word. Funniest quote i've heard in a while, actually. Or remembered, for that matter.

Now. Mr. Selway. When i say "he's great" i've probably got a mock serious face on and am probably laughing my way through my explaination of why he's "great". It's not because he's a good teacher. It's because of the way he acts or rather the way he "teaches". If you see him, you'll know. He was teaching Jap today. Hah. Anyway, sorry to the person sitting next to me who might have thought i was serious and was hitting me every so often. Sorry.

YES! Pangeaday.org works again! Now, it's the only unblocked site i can see that hosts "The Man Without a Head". THAT film is the sole reason why i got...18/20. Seriously. It's that cool. And no, a man without a head is NOT funny >_>

Yea.

EDIT: Just remembered that Kevin Rudd can speak mandarin. Lol. Also, I was thinking about the Oil Spill and a plane with Sundance executives going down and kept going back to the utilitarianist proof of disproof. That is; Is killing 2 people for 6 Billion (Minus 2) people's enjoyment, worth it? How it relates in my mind is; does an oil spill affecting 1 million rate higher on news than 5 people dying? Raw numbers, the 1 million should come first but... Also, what is there to get over? What part of it, really. The headless man bit, or the quasi-quote bit?

Also drawing people is harder than i thought. Mainly because i don't do so very often, and inanimate objects don't move, thus easier to draw. (Duh.) Also something about a magician's code.

Hoping you like the film as much as i do.

Again, something weird.

Now, the confusing thing about Bunnings is that they DO have "samples" and whatnot, and as an uninformed consumer, or relative of said consumer, or advisor of a consumer, i can't tell the difference between tampering by consumers or tampering by staff for consumers. That said, i probably shouldn't have, but really, they should make it clear. Either all have samples, or none. Greys make people confused.

Anyone feel like playing DOOM again? I do. It's probably just the cycling of games again. And maybe the "ooh. scary." bit of horror/action games. Also, it encourages you to pick up the biggest weapon and keep shooting. Lame, i know. But still.

And i remember talking about "people who must not be photographed under any circumstance". Really, i'm sure that they just don't want the people to sue the school. But the melodrama doesn't help all that verily much.

Is there a difference between Chemist and Pharmacist? Besides the former also being a larger class of jobs/specilizations, etc. Like Chemistry. "Not all chemists wear white coats".

Family is watching some A- grade movie about Treasure and Lincon getting shot and CONTROVERSY! Lots of it, too. Personally, it's not that great, but it is mind sinking if you watch it for too long.

Also, History is somewhat easy, but the second question doesn't specify so..I don't know if i have enough. Well, Printing tommorow.

Hoping you find something interesting to do. Really.

Four, Five, Six

Now, FreeCiv. ("Cause civilization should be free!") Funny game mainly because of how absurd it is. I can be "Chinese" and still build the Pyramids and Hanging Gardens in the space of 20 years if i have about 2000 gold. Where 2000 gold = 2,000,000 in 3500BC or something like that. Which is ridiculous. And i never knew the Pyramids were massive Granaries! Or that THE Lighthouse makes your ships move faster; even when invading people.

Secondly, when i talk about nostalgia, it's usually interwoven with regret. As with a lot of things. It's only a few days later that i realise that the "problem" isn't a big one, anyway. So it's maddening. But if i made a graph of how many people i've made enemies and how many friends, it'd go something like this. y = 2^x. Where y = friends, x = enemies. Which is probably a lot, and the graph not so important/accurate, but i have made an enemy of a Bunnings employee once, and i hope to never see him ever again because of how mean he was to me. It's like i'm not a "buyer" in their store. Yes, i'm a "little young" but it doesn't mean i can examine how chair feet attach things are made. (For the record, i was unscrewing a leg and checking the parts and he came up to me with another customer while i was screwing it back together and putting it back. The leg was out of it's plastic when i picked it up, but he was like "Don't take things out of the plastic. See, if this lady *points to person he's helping* wanted this, she wouldn't buy it no?" in an angry tone. Then ensued an arguement between me and my father to which the lady came to my defence. Also, when asked to apologise, he mock apologised and didn't care about how many people he was offending. Including the lady.) And that's why i never want to see him again. Ever.

Additionally, i hate it when people apologise when they don't mean it. If you don't mean it, don't bother.

Thirdly, optometrist, fixed glasses frame, resolved to take frequent breaks, wear glasses less except in classes, besides PE and got a new set of glasses "ordered". Which is a bit =/ to me, because they're expensive. ~$300 at last guesstimate. Which is a heck of a lot. =/

Did i tell you that i like Red Bean Buns? Cause i do. It's like taro, but cooler. And Beans, not potato style. Reminds me of Honshu; which beside being a Japanese Island, is the pinyin for some kind of Potato thing. I THINK it's sweet potato. Anyway, you steam it and eat it in place of rice. Sweet! Upon googling, i think it's sweet potato. And taro's purple. For those who don't like taro; Shame. Okay maybe not, but it's really really really good. Like Marshmallows.

Funny that i remember that Altruism is a defence mechanism (i think). It helps people cope with their situation; probably through mirror neurons and empathy. You help someone else: you feel better. Happens all the time. Now, to apply it to modern life; how much altruism is there? And does a life of kindness redeem a life of wickedness? Or perhaps, one kind act in a chain of events ends it all? How far does it move before it stops?

Pharmacist/Chemist/Druggist (If you're American) doesn't sound too bad, i'm just not sure about the stuff they sell at the front of their stores. Like...Hair color and umbrellas. Really, if i wanted those, a supermarket has them. Still, good money for easy-ish work. Fine by me.

As much as i like long posts, sometimes my ramblings look like walls of text. I do hope you can skim-read like i do; mainly because i have topic sentences, and this IS practice of expression for essays and whatnot. Speaking of which, an analysis which was supposed to be an analysis turned into an essay for me because i wasn't sure, and couldn't care less. Also, it got pushed back a week, much to my ire; because i printed it out. Now i have ~$3 on my card for printing and might have to stock it up, even more to my annoyance because i don't particularly like those office ladies and am a bit edgy around them.

Hoping you can finish English/History/Reminiscing soon. History sounds boring and anger-inducing and putting emotion into responses. Which i love doing for Science, because nothing says "hello!" like a big attack on something with gusto and long words.

One, Two, Three

One, FreeCiv, Yaya?
Two, Work. Damn.
Three, History/Science/English. Bah.

But all in all, lots of work for the weekend, so i had better do it. First off, Science. Next, History. Then to cap it all off, a hard essay and some kind of visual representation crap. Bah.

Finished AAA for those who didn't see; i will admit it was late at night. Submitted it today and Mrs. Berhlener (?) was like "Oh... Great!" mainly because people are working on it, but i think i was one of the "early-hander-in-er-s". So..DONE!

Mix and match, really. Though this mufti day was a bit convenient too, and being held in high regard by teachers is good for them accepting really scrappy excuses and "overlook" it all. "Modern Consumer" indeed.

Hoping you make an AAA. In what, 6 days? HA!

Good News/Bad News

One, I need to see the optomitrist for a new frame; bleh. money, etc. etc. Don't worry, i forgive you.

Two, Need to revise/make notes/whatever. Maybe take up Engineering in Year 11, to fill that gap of one subject, so all is not so bad, not so good. Parent Teach night wasn't too bad either, just a bit stuffy in that Exam Centre

Three, There's a lot of stuff to do, ie; work. Also that darned AAA which is must finish and hand in tomorrow. Which is exactly what i'll do after i finish what i'm talking about here.

Four, I hope the person who i "appropriated" or rather "stole" for lack of a better term, doesn't mind that i did, because i'm sorry, and please excuse me.

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.
The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:

You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

Now, this is where the rule of "averages" comes in because, i love my Education, thank you. But, for the most part it's not too bad, considering it's one page, and not very detailed either. It's like a coffee break one, and i guess that's part of the charm.

I hate it when people tell me to do worse than i already do. One snide thought that goes through my head is that they're just jealous. Oh well. Perhaps i'm just not thinking about it right. And just because it's "true" doesn't make it any less sharp/hurt-y.

Color, color, color. At this rate, i'm going to have to settle for second-quality pencils. Ah well. Today's been eventful and made me slightly irked. And angry. And annoyed.

But perhaps that's all days.

EDIT: EDIT: EDIT: Finished that AAA like i said. Color was green. Will hand in tomorrow. More pressing is the fact that i need to print off my wide-r reading, but i think i'll be able to get away with a third-grade excuse (that is, a very bad one.). Or maybe.. I could print at lunch, but Bio is on, so i dunno. Engineering also needs SOUND. I'll be working on that tomorrow, so don't wander around doing nothing. How busy this all is.

Hoping you have a nicer day/night/evening/noon/afternoon/aftermorn/day after after tomorrow.

How bad could it be?

There's nothing wrong with Work Experience, it's just hard to find somewhere suitable =/ But besides that, it's hard to find somewhere i like which might have said work experience, and it's fairly damned hard.

Report was alright. But a few things:
I hate the copy and paste comments. (English was the only one that made sense, tome.)
I hate the "Oh, he's doing okay. DW." Because clearly I'm not.

A: English, Science, Geography
B: Engineering, Math, PD
C: Jap + History

But it'll get there. I have one more year and one more subject to decide. Economics or Biology? Hm.

Today was a bit weird, a friend was poking fun at me while i was still there (To my disdain) but i doubt they care all too much, and a lot of people where just sitting there, influencing the flow of things. Mainly to a "why aren't we doing anything? eh." sort of mood. It's all a little scary. Maybe it's me.

Also makes me wonder what Pharmacists do/learn. Besides precriptions, etc. etc. Seems like a weird job, but parents say good money, so i'm okay with it. Sort of.

Well, I have just realised that my posts aren't quite that long, probably because i don't spend as much time, and thus i should spend more time, and less waffle on about waffling about waffles.

Like the shiny, shiny new pamphlet thingummy that i have about Anxiety Disorders. Again, by Beyond Blue which is one of my favorite companies beside...

1.Level 5 (Dark Cloud, Rogue Galaxy, Professor Layton)
2.Square/Square Enix (More notorius for Final Fantasy, but i also love The World Ends With You.)
3.Sony (Dark Cloud, but also the really cool stuff they sometimes make)
4.Nintendo (Cool games, minus Mario series/Wario and whatnot.)

All cool companies, but i doubt i could apply for one of them. Well, perhaps one of these days.

But really, it's all very fun and all that jazz. Like "Gig the Alternative".

Anyway, I do wonder what i hate..

1.Headache-y smells. Mainly Gases
2.Hypocrisy, mainly because i have a compulsion to make the person realise how dumb they sound
3.Not know what's happening. Yea, I'm extremely curious.

There's probably more, but i will find them. Eventually in the mess of a head.

And there's a test on Jap tommorow. Seems easy, but i hate the writing.

Tesuto o shimashou ka?

Hoping you don't have to do weird tests. Also, Math Non-Calc jaxz is next monday/tuesday/something. We think. Also re-cog and spring assembly is next week. Exciting workshop, ne?

Although...

Now, on the topic of FFTA, it's a funny game, and i like it but it meant to be played without spoilers. Really, it makes the game all that little bit worse, even for me, who is a spoiler-lover when it comes to roguelikes. Minus one roguelike in particular which doesn't need a spoiler.

Now, off that topic, Biology is still scary, Physics isn't all that difficult and the discs are terrible. Maybe a burning error, according to 2+2 or just plain intuition.

Perhaps...Ah well. Essay due sometime friday, bleh. AAA going to be handed in this week if i can find a green or something..Could someone lend me their green? It had better we somewhat decent; eg. Faber-Castell, etc. etc. I can't seem to find mine and i think i'm starting to use etc. etc. more often. Yay?

Sigh. Stranded II is in german, originally; now ported to english, but i really don't want to read spoilers and yet..How the hell do i make a longbow/arblast? Bendy Stick + Cord = Short Bow so..

Anyhow. Oh. PS. About MSN and all that jazz, i won't be going online for a bit till i find a soln. Pidgin screws up, MSN won't install, Ebuddy doesn't work. (Chinese windows. Mainly. All options are in chinese, i can't read, but i get the general gist of things with the bits i can read.) So i'm not too sure. Hooboy. Need to get that color. Green? Or Lighter Purple?

Hoping you actually try Stranded II because it so much funny.

Oh hey!

Was going to post something else, but after a few months of not working, my netbook's inbuilt shitspeakers are working again! Whahey! Not that it's that big a celebration, but it's still sorta cool if battery draining.

Woke up today and was like "hey...what...oh..holiday! yay!". I really forgot...haha..

So now i have 1 day extra on 2 essays (yay?), that art award which i am mere minutes away from finishing but need to find a color to suit, a performance poetry thing which needs a prop, thus my "woodwork project" will be a "baton" (heh.) and wide reading to double check for stupidity. Though, they're not all due tommorow, just the performance is. Ah well.

As for them NQE's...Found out that detailed pictures of animal cells make me queasy, but blood/surgery and whatnot doesn't. Ugh, all those squishy bits. Perhaps i shouldn't take biology after all =/ Chem makes sense as does physics and the disc i have doesn't work or something, so could i get someone else's disc or something? But wait, there's more! You have to hand the disc back tommorow, thus i can't. Ah well, i'll figure out SOMETHING.

Also, please DO NOT send anything to my hotmail. I can't read anything in it for quite a while so please don't bother. I have a perfectly good g-mail that works. So try that instead.

Hopinh you enjoy today. (Yay.)

Minus One

Was too busy to post yesternight, sorry.

But i did learn a bit more about gardening tools; the whippersniper thing is like a scythe and the blower is really really really fun to use. Now i know where the term "toy" comes from :D

Also decided to have a laugh at the absurdity of Stranded II. Again. Haha..

Hoping you try Stranded II. Freeware. Fun. Funny. Hehe.