Contemplation in the 60th year.

"The time for that was long past."

First off. New plans, new thoughts, new solutions.

givesmehope.com

While not the most happy of sites, or optimistic (well, at least to me.), it is however, inspirational, in its own way.

I have, come up with a master plan which will, hopefully kill 4 birds with 1 big fat stone. And maybe it will actually work this time. I just need to ask a few people and confirm some details plus what to get for this plan. And if it works how I think it will work then all the better.

All the talk about fixing things, and I haven't done much except think and plan and think. Really, it's all I ever do do. Perhaps I'm just blind to the world. And I have an immediate problem to fix, which I have a solution to, but it involves being ruthless, and I'm not sure whether I'll be able to live with that. Living a life with a serious betrayal doesn't seem like a pleasant prospect. I guess it comes down to "simple solution vs complex solution" and the latter eludes me. Maybe if I delay plans and think about it more. Argh. And you wonder why I worry.

Leading on from that, the human mind is "vast and complex and sometimes impossible things happen, and we call them "miracles"". But perhaps, things resolve themselves in a roundabout way. The problem is "when". Like the story about a poor couple; a man with an ancient pocket watch and a woman with the longest and "prettiest" locks of hair in all of the kingdom. So the man sells the pocket watch for a set of combs for the wife and the wife sells her hair for a chain for the watch. Imagine their surprise when they meet and swap. It is, exactly that. And very very poignant.

How unique are we? It is theoretically possible to have 2 exactly identical, mentally, people. Theory doesn't always carry over, unfortunately. It's a gamble to start, and from there, it is a "melting pot" from where things are collected, lost and found. Perhaps, I might see this happen in my lifetime. Probably not. Thing is, if one trait is the same, you'll have at least 2 traits that aren't. Such is probabilities and life.

I have read a few (read: 47) pages of that givesmehope.com and only one of them really inspired me. To surmise; a woman is admitted to hospital, being already dead for a few minutes, but because the doctor doesn't give up, the woman is still living today. And that one story, is what inspires me and gives me conflicting ideas. I'm not sure if I can handle the death of anyone, when I could save them, and yet, I refuse to let anyone die when I could save them. I'm not sure if I'll be a surgeon, I'm still thinking about it.

Which leads onto "charity begins at home". Which is incredibly true, because if you cannot help yourself, then who are you to help others?

Health Reform. Love the new ad against Tony Abbot. Makes him look completely inept, but then again, all political ads are meant to do that.

60 minutes had a segment on War Doctors yesterday. And the capture the gist of it. "A doctor lives by "do no harm" and as soon as they pick up a gun, their integrity is compromised." vs "If a doctor cannot save himself, how can he possibly be expected to save others?".

A notebook does wonders for memory.

I realise why I like writing. It's like building something and knowing that it will work. I guess it's satisfaction.

Apologies for stealing, but this really does prove my point that it's not always true.

Engaged Idealist


Engaged Idealists are extroverted and helpful. Others find them to be very congenial and inspiring - especially as they are always willing to see the best in the other person. Their humour, their energy and their optimism attract other people. Engaged Idealists are very good at communicating and are good at convincing and firing on others. That is why it is a matter of course that they often take over the leading role in groups. This personality type often produces very charismatic persons.

Engaged Idealists have an unusually strong ability to empathise. They are tolerant and generous towards others; they sometimes tend to idealise their friends. They always try to suit everybody and want their relationships to be harmonious and satisfactory. To achieve this, they are prepared to invest a great deal and to put their requirements last. As Engaged Idealists are very considerate, there is the danger of them sacrificing and overexerting themselves for others. In their job, they therefore have to be very careful not to develop a burnout syndrome.

Engaged Idealists are reliable, well organised and love structuring complicated situations. They have difficulty accepting criticism; they quickly feel hurt and misunderstood. Their perfectionism also influences their love life - they look for the perfect relationship for life. Once they have made their decision, they are faithful, well-balanced and loving partners. However, should they get involved with the wrong person, it can happen that they allow themselves to be exploited for a long time before they end the relationship.

Adjectives which describe your type: extroverted, theoretical, emotional, planning, idealistic, committed, likable, enthusiastic, responsible, helpful, loyal, diplomatic, friendly, inspiring, caring, solicitous, optimistic, effusive, adaptable, communicative, articulate, convincing, energetic, optimistic, open, vulnerable

Optimistic? 5 years of opinions says otherwise.
Likable? I do have more enemies than friends, really.
Responsible? Bah. Humbug.
Tolerant? I'd hope so, but hopes don't always pan out.


Hoping everything is grammatically right, for you Happy Apple.