Wondering if I should have written "Archimedes" for my source on the problems with cosmetics

"Chem....Hmm... No time?"

Yea... they did something weird, and we didn't have time and...

I had a wall of text for every page except for the last page.

And for investigation B, they didn't say they washed it.

Ie; the reaction didn't take place.

Then they say the reaction took place.

Shoddy practices.

I wish they gave us more time.

Time to study physics.

M+G hm?

See you on the other side, I suppose.

Morning Pre Chem Test feelings..........

"Archimedes! No!"

I don't think I'll ever be ready for chem. It's a lot of memorising, and I know the key points, just the finer details may be a bit dodgy. TBH though, I should be fine.

I hope so anyway.

Unless they ask bullshit questions about something no-one's researched. Oh well.

Nuclear I know.

Chem of Art, I don't know so well.

But. It'll work.

So in short, I'm anxious about the test, because I'm not sure if I know enough.

But I probably do.

I don't want to do the test. But I have to.

But as soon as Friday rolls around, everything's open. Really.

EVERYTHING.

Believe it.

So I just need to get through this test, and the next 5.... wait. 4. 2Unit doesn't count.

A quick note on the song for this post; I wish I could play clarinet like that. Oh wait. Maybe I can try. Eh, later.

`It's a very emotional piece.

And so is 4U english.

I'm ready for all of the Maths tests, English..... That's it.

Why am I not ready for Phys and Chem?

Phys because I don't have the stuff printed out.

I hate research tasks...sigh.

Because when you think you know enough, there's more to know.

Oh well.

Hoping I do well.

The best praise one can give, is the praise of another's character.

"For whose sake does my bell ring? For whose sake does my blood flow?" - Oath Allegiance

I got a rather...well. Completely unexpected...portion? Of praise from a certain Psychic Brown.

And, it makes me wonder whether I'm a good person, a bad person, a jealous person.

"Fraught with tempestuous jealousy"

"La Douce Odeur De La Jalousie"

There was a writing exercise today. Yucky. Somehow, that has become a part of my lexicon. But it suits me. So I shall continue using it. It is, in a way, a new idiosyncrasy.

And Cathedral. I wish I could draw. Why is it that I can't?

Asyndeton. What is it?

Asyndeton - The omission or absence of a conjunction between parts of a sentence.

Perhaps I should tell Tea-English-Study-Partner that her use of the term is actually rather incorrect.

It's Greek. Did you know that?

Why am I thinking like this?

It's not like me, is it?

Who am I?

Perhaps I'm the robot people seem to see.

The new bag I have is stable, but also very uncomfortable. It is off balance, it has no one point of centre.

But I'll get used to it.

Both Tea-Study-Partner and Brown told me I have a natural talent for English.

Do I? I don't have the marks to reflect it.

I'm told I have a natural talent for Maths. But the marks don't reflect that.

I'm good at Physics. Where's the marks to back up that compliment?

Chemistry. Biology. Where?

Sometimes I wonder how people can write poetry. It is tough.

I haven't blogged in days, and what happens. The most tumultuous days of my life occur in this week.

Why?

I give up a lot of things, and instead, other parts of my life become complex.

It is indeed a wonderful life, but again, incredibly complex.

I have come to realise that one can never be honest unless they are an impossibly pure person.

And in comparison to the person I care the most about, I'm a very bad person.

When did I become like this?

When I'm asked a question, I wonder whether I should tell the truth, or lie. It's come to a point where lying seems like a better solution because that way, everyone is happy.

If everyone is happy, then the guilt I feel is negligible.

She told me that I'm weak; I want everyone to be happy, and that's impossible.

I was told by a good friend that I rely a lot on tone, and gesture. Perhaps....

I could turn this post into something good later.

Don't you dare say that it's angst.

Preempting any other response...

Writing is an exercise for relief of emotion.

It is nice to know that later, you can re-read it, and wonder how you've grown as a person.

"The day you stop growing is the day that you die."

"Neku, think about what's the most important thing to you, and then answer."

I got her angry, and then, I didn't know what to do.

Despite it all, I never know what to do.

Why do people think I'm a natural leader; I'm a poor leader.

Why is it that when I don't know, others have the answer for me.

And why is it that I can never accept their answer?

I'm rather calm right now; it's not hot, it's just warm.

Funny. I have a friend who goes by the name of Calms.

He's a Spy.

I have not played against Traitor for a while now. Last time I played, I wasn't a 77 Hour Soldier.

I wonder if he's still wielding "The Julia Gillard"

Perhaps he is. But if he is, I want to see how good he is now.

It's gotten to the point where it's a rivalry, but at the same time, it's not any challenge. Trump him in Maths, Chemistry, and English, though I'm guessing about English. Maths, I'm 100% confident that I have already.

So where does that leave me.

I wonder where the Year 8 days went, and I wonder what would have happened if I kept to myself.

Perhaps things would have turned out differently for the better.

I regret everything I've done in my life, but I can't change it.

And then I remember.

"If you can't change your fate, change your attitude."

And then, I think, why don't I play with an attitude of killing everything.

Why?

Kael, do you look forward to every game, and play with an attitude of "I'm going to crush them, whoever I'm playing?"

You have no time to size up your opponent, just to play the best that you can.

It's the same with TF2.

Neku, get a life.

But, this is my life.

I'm going to leave up this post for a while, I think.

Winterrowd-Teach used to ask me "Do you have a photographic memory, Neku?"

And I would say "I don't know. Maybe."

Now, I think what she thought was a photographic memory was in-fact just my retention of important details. Chances are, if I don't think it's important, I will have forgotten it the next day.

I can give you, with detail, the layout of the Women's College, and we can check it with the blueprints.

But I can't tell you exactly what you had for lunch yesterday.

Maybe that, combined with some sort of "good observational skill" is what makes me, me.

And perhaps that's how I learn concepts quickly.

I'm experimenting with an extrapolation of concepts from an story which will allow one to edit it, and change it in ways that will make it a tighter story. It reminds me of electronics, cooking and deck building.

The challenge is to find a way to beat an obstacle, given limited resources.

It's not good enough to deal with a problem by running away. I think I do it too much.

"Sympathy is not merely "to suffer" with someone; it is to take their life, and make it your own, for a minute, an hour, a year."

I don't think there's anything else I need to say, is there?

Goodnight.

Hoping you think about my life, and see how it applies to yours.

One day without TF2, instead with work?

"Parable of Wolf and Owl"

I spent the day listening to this interesting tune. And tbh, if it didn't have the random screaming, it would be very very good. I dunno why the female vocal doesn't just quit <_<

But ok.

Here it is.

Had a nightmare, as usual, it's not really anything too important though.

But I suppose nightmares can be warnings, as per usual.

TBH, I think two songs back to back, one of Bishamonten, and the other of one of those Taoist zombies may have contributed to the nightmare.

Maybe.

In any case, there's a lot of work we need to do, hmm?

And funnily enough, Tofu, a 200hr sniper keeps telling me I need to work.

She's right.

Which is how/why I didn't actually play last night.

I was going to, but I kept putting it off with work.

Anyway. I don't see why you'd have reason to hate or be angry with anything. Annoyed, perhaps, but.......

Anger is just so inefficient.

Anyway. I'm not really feeling that great, so this shall be the post till I decide to write something better.

Hoping everyone is having such fun.

Ack.

"I do not know which is worse. Looking to find that a dear friend has been waiting all their life, or not looking at all."

Yes. I thought of that just now.

I feel really guilty.

Hoping you guys see what I see?

Prediction

"Finally got my training maps to work."

So right now, I got my training maps to work, probably played 2 hours of TF2, but that's ok, cause now I'm doing work, and there's no morning class tomorrow, so I can sleep at 10.

And ummmm........

I'm set for tomorrow, really.

Got a massive headache from all the rocketing.

Like, with the Direct Hit, people can jump over your rockets. Which means you have to aim at their feet. Literally. At their feet.

Then they get launched skyward, and you can pick them off with a nice minicrit.

Anyway, that's my day.

How was yours?

Hoping yours was more productive, I suppose.

4 A Day? Weekly? Who knows.

"Take your time, but be quick about it" - Calms

There's something a friend of mine told me a few days ago.

And here's the follow up:

"Realistically, you'll come to a point where you can do it faster and faster, and eventually, it'll seem like the world comes to a stop waiting for you to get that headshot on the guy =D"

You can work out what's going on.

As for blog posting, I don't really care that much; not like anyone really wants to read this, so yes.

And talking Vitamins and Osteo- with a physio, is quite the fun.

Someone tell me the definitive difference between Osteomalacia, and Osteoporosis?

First one is otherwise known as Rickets in children, but but, can appear in Adults, and is all about bone formation, and low levels of Vit D for Ca. Absorption.

But but, Osteoporosis can be caused by the same thing, which leads to bone density decreasing, more fractures, etc. etc.

It's not all that different though.

But as Gill says "Osteoporosis is multifactorial"

Ho yes. "Multifactorial"

A bit like this: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Which is rather apt.

So drink enough milk, and eat your veggies.

......... I think I'll stick to meat and milk though.

Hoping you guys do?

Don't bother me?

"Alright........."

Um.... Yea. I have a lot of 4U concepts hm?

They're all pretty related.

And this weekend... well.

Stuff needs to happen.

Hoping you guys have fun, yea?

No pressure.

"Umm...."

There's a lot of work to do, and there's 6 weeks till exams =/

I hope you guys are studying hard, eh?

I hope I'm studying hard.

Hoping you guys know, hmmm?

What *can* I say?

"Like a jellyfish!"

Swimming.... well.

At least, it's anti-fat, yes?

And it tones my upper half, except my lower half is still eugh and whatever.

AAAAAAAAAAnyway.

Um. What can I say? I dunno.

Just doing physics.

After that, probably going to go play a little Soldier until bedtime.

Hoping you guys have fun too, yea? =3

Things have changed.

"I'll play if DL plays" - Harvard.

Ok, so I'm going to try and convince you to play TF2 on the weekend....

When it comes time to the weekend.

But you're probably busy with SC2, so whatever.

Anyway, I've got nothing good to say about the game I play lots, so I'll just end it here.

SilveryDragothing, get on MSN >_>

Hoping you guys are reading lots.

The entertainer.

"I think I'll have to get better at monopoly to accomodate."

Hopefully I quit swimming soonish? I dunno.

I feel like I'm getting fat for some reason.

Oh well.

Um. Yea. Tired, etc.

I don't like sugar when I'm tired.

Though I was hyped up on sugar once.

That was fun, trying to play TF2.

I did manage to get a few nice juggles => mini-crits.

Did you know that the Reserve Shooter does less potential dmg per clip than a regular Shotgun?

Yes. You probably did.

Hoping you guys have fun tomorrow. Maths!

Become rather lax with posts.

"Not that any of you care."

Um.... Yea. I can't really be bothered to post *that* much, I mean, study 'n all. Besides, my life isn't all that great, yes?

Yes.

Finally got that 1000 kills on my Direct Hit, and and, I got a nice shiny hat from a friend, though she wants me to dye it pink.

I think it looks awesome. Just not pink.

So yea.

That's my weekend. How was your weekend?

Hoping you guys had fun too.

I'm sorry.

"Just be friends~"

Yes. I need to do more work.

Um.... yea.

To whoever wants it, I'm sorry.

Hoping you understand. Silvy-Drago, get on msn~

Swimming.

"Yes. I'm tired."

Um.... I need to learn to write better.

And swimming's soon.

And omg, I need to write more, eugh.

I feel so lazy.

See you guys later.

Hoping you peoples understand, hmm? Silver-Dragon, we're gonna be learning maffs, yes!

Because my life is about 40% TF2....

"Hehe..."

1. I'm not likely to be on MSN anymore until the HSC is over *unless* it's someone special online, or Ali's online. As such, out of those time periods, I probably won't be online. I don't "pretend" to be offline >_>

2. I need to write another story for BB. And well. I suppose I just need to get better and better at writing. I have an idea, but I'm not quite too sure how I'll do it.

3. Kael, do you remember the time a long time ago, we were talking about how/why I play support classes (Well, used to)? Y'now. Medic, Engineer, Spy. To a lesser extent Pyro, though these days I only play the class if I need to help some fail engineers, cause the Homewrecker and whatnot. And then you said to play some Demoknight or Pyro, or Soldier? I didn't quite take that advice seriously, mostly because it wasn't meant to be serious advice, but secondarily, because I really do fail with Demo. There is like, no joke with it. I can't DKnight, I can't sticky jump well, I can't hit people with pipes, etc. Yea, he gets work done. (Force times distance. The force needed to make you fly backwards a bajillion meters is in his explosives.) Just one of those things.

They say that Soldier is one of the most easy classes to "pick up and play" but, I had troubles with-

(Better go to school. Brb, finish this later.)
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Apparently I'm a half-cat-boy-half-robot...... thing.

Oh well. I love my gestures, nya? =3

Just kidding. I just love my gestures.

I need to find related texts, too.

Anyway, I was thinking of writing a few articles for TF2 for BB, but I'm not sure how many hours I rank compared to the people of BHHS, so I better check.

Kael, kill me now for thinking that idea, but I did.

Oh well.

Um.... yes.

Not much else, wallowing in despair over marks, and happy that tomorrow is more 4U math.

And sorry to everyone who found Dandelion + I noisy, that's just how we are when we do maths, I guess =O

I'll try to limit the noise.

Try.

Hoping we do.

Parabolic theory and projectiles.

"Physics => Pendulum => Propane Nightmares => Mass A.I. => TF2"

Um... yes.

I might end up making this post about nothing.

1) 15/20 English Ext. T_T

That is so crap. You have no idea. It's a 12/15 and a 3/5. I don't really mind the 3/5 but the 12/15? T_T

Um. So yea, let's backtrack all the way to Physics, and Pendulums.

I love pendulums. Why? Cause with really small angles, and really long pendulums, it gets closer and closer to true Simple Harmonic Motion.

I was working out the SHM of a pendulum, and found that g = -n^2 L

Which didn't quite make sense, because then it meant that g varies as the length of the pendulum moves up or down. And then I realised that it just meant that it varied according to the length of the pendulum, and that was ok.

Oh, and n = 1/T, I think....

So, yea. It was rather weird, and nice, and a good diversion, and still made sense.

As for BB, sign me up for Gestapo.

(Won't be responsible if the Bulletin gets renamed to "Brendan's Bulletin" as Kael gave me the very nice idea =3)

(Just kidding, I'd never do that.)

(Maybe.)

As for articles, I'll probably just um... write more stories.

Idk.

Now, I need to go get more kills on my DH.

Brb.

Um.... Yes. I can't be bothered to draw up some nice graphs. So...

Or well, diagrams.

Funny thing. I was looking at the gray sky today, and expected a soldier to be flying through the sky. Ah well.

Need to work on airshots, and I need to actually start doing work.

Hoping you guys have a productive day.

I'm rather lax with weekends.

"Despite it all..."

Ok, so, funnily enough. I have an idea for 4U, I've actually accomplished quite a lot, *and* managed to get in maybe.... 6 hours? Of TF2 in a weekend.

What's even nicer is that I'm getting better at shooting people and making them blow up.

Reading a post on a certain Frozen Tundra Forest's blog, does anyone else have the feeling that making friends isn't something that you should be thinking about? Because chances are, if you are, then you're just wasting your time? Or is that just the super impulsive part of me speaking?

Hm.

I would share a song, and elaborate more, but then you'd be getting a peek at my ideas for 4U, and I haven't written anything, so no, not yet.

I'm rather excited for this year, even if it means I have to give up TF2 a little later down the year, mostly because of all the new things we're gonna be learning and whatnot. Also cause uni's soon.

Maybe tonight I'll make a post including a half-assed picture of how I learned to airshot, or something like that.

Yes. I can shoot people up into the air, and then shoot them out of the air, making them explode into bloody fireworks. Much like Sparks Terran.

Although, my accuracy with such things is quite low. But if you're rocket jumping upwards, and I see you, you've got a 50/50 chance of being hit by a mini-crit rocket.

And yes, my life is just gaming and study.

Get used to it.

Oh, and seeing as I'm not on msn all that often for who knows why, if you have problems, or questions, or whatnot, just send me an email, preferably to my gmail.

Hoping you guys don't mind.

Can't have enough Maths.

"If you shoot at a bird, will it die?"

Probably not, if you just touch it with a stone.

Anyway, I've kinda realised there's a lot to learn in DH airshotting, and just using it in general, as well as rocket jumping.

Oh well, you learn as you go.

How was your weekend?

I have 4U ideas. Yesh.

Don't doubt me, I'll have a first draft ready...soon.

Also, 3U Eng has an assignment due in a week >_> I don't wanna do it.

Hoping you guys are having fun too.

Almost forgot about this.

"Um..."

Well. Yes, I *almost* forgot about this.

But then I remembered.

And what has my day been like?

Not that bad, not that good. Have a lot of work I need to do, there was a new TF2 patch, so I played a little bit of TF2

Will probably wake up at 6 to play some more, and to do lots of work.

Sigh. I wanna finish this chem prac, then move onto 4U maths, and then after that... probably scribbling crap into my journal, and then ending on "Goodnight" >=3

No, I won't, but still.

Hoping you guys have a productive two days.... Oh, and I need to work on that essay eugh >_>

Time catches up with EVERYONE, Neku!

"Yea? Well it has never laid a glove on me!"

I need more time.

If only I had two hearts.

Instead, I have a measly one.

Oh well.

Hoping to see you 4Uer's tomorrow morning! 7:30!

But the clocks never tick...

Rocketeering and Swimming.

"Swim less. Shoot more."

Yea... Swimming was actually ok today.

Better study though.

Need to do the paper for tomorrow. 4U...hm.

Hoping you guys are enjoying yourselves.

A QnA session.

"hey Neku, when you tf2 how long does a session go for? I don't understand how you can befriend people so quickly. I mean, people have a laugh around up there every now and then, and to be honest in that brief window of playing I found the people there to be much more fun than the game. But I rarely saw the same person twice, and as fun as it was I didn't consider it friendship." - Harvard.

I'll get around to answering that in a second.

But first: I saw Mrs. Petrified Wood "Feel the Biology" at Epping Library this afternoon.

It was really weird.

I think she walked in with her son. *shrug*

Um.... What else.

Oh. Maths... went pretty good, I think.

And my parents aren't so sure that I should drop Bio, given that I might have to try less hard, given that I was gaming the night before the Bio exam, and still topped my class =P

So.... hm.

Not sure.

Anyway.

The group I'm in atm "One of Each" consists of 10 members, and we've almost got one of each class. As in, one person is dedicated to being good at that class.

I was trading on a trade server, playing a little bit of battle medic/double medic. Y'now, ubersaw, hit them a few times, ubercharge the other medic, and then rinse and repeat. It's just good fun. And my partner was a good medic/melee-er. So yea. I did friend him, but I haven't played with him or talked to him since. Which I would define as one of the friends you've mentioned. Maybe I'll drop in on a game with him sometime. I don't know.

Then I was trading, got into a trade with a really kind person who offered a little more than she should have for 2 description tags, but she didn't care.

So that's how I got my Strange Frontier Justice, which to this day, has like, 10 kills on it.

This was when you guys were on the Semi-Formal, I believe.

Anyway, I was impressed by her kindness, and because we were talking a lot throughout the trade, we friended each other and continued talking on the Steam chat.

Eventually we joined another game, met up with her husband, who's the Spy of our little group, and with more talking, and lots of time skipping in this blog post, she more or less convinced me to be the Soldier of the group; she's the Scout.

Um... We're missing an Engineer and Medic, but that's not too much of a big deal, I suppose.

Anyway, yea. That's pretty much how I'm affiliated with them now. It's a nice, small closed group, rather than that mess of a group that's "Baulko" or whatever it is.

Actually, I think our Pyro doubles up as the Engineer. Oh whatever.

I hope that answers your question, Harvard.

Time to do Extension English, Physics, and MATHS. Yes.

Hoping you guys had fun in your Holidays.

Yea... I did watch the Wedding of Melody-Song

"Hehe..."

Mm.... I have seen the earlier eps. of Dr. Who, so obviously I'd remember that, when they showed Closing Time and the um... wife of Craig says "Who?" when Alfie says "Doctor."

So, yea.

Why it reeks of maths is because I can't do anything else well. And I don't do math well enough as it is.

Complex numbers...

Learnt today that they can be differentiated, unless it depends on the conjugate of the argument.

Well. Sophie told me anyway.

Um... not sure what else to say.

Physics - 81% (I'm guessing Top 5 in my class?)
Chemistry - 83% (Equal 2nd, beat Osborn yessssssssss.)
Biology - 81% (TF2 the night before, "Australian Bracken" is definitely Australian, and I think I might have topped the class ^^ Beat you DandyLion~)

Ok, that's enough boasting about Average marks.

Hoping you guys did very well in your exams. I want math back.

Maths....so bad. T_T

"Really."

Well...

Y'now. Last question, 7 was Locus. And I didn't have time to do the last bit of it. Just like the 3U Yearly. T_T

Well, that's my day's problem.

Hoping you guys had a nice holidays. I Don't wanna go to school though.

Maths maths maths...

"If only.."

Well. If I only had to concentrate on Maths. Then all would be fine, and simple.

As it is...

Oh well.

I need to do more maths. I fail math for life.

Hoping you guys have more.. relaxing holidays-ending

Don't quite feel like blogging.

"So I won't."

Um... Yea.

Night night.

Hoping you guys understand.

Apparently I'm fearless.

"A bit like Fearless Leader? Nah, no wai."

Still listening to Aku no Meshitsukai.

Or Servant of Evil for those who don't know.

It's really... I love it. Hehe. And well. The wordplay is pretty good. Aku => Aki => Red =3

Nevermind. I'm just rambling about my music.

I was talking with a friend I made recently, and how he doesn't listen to music, after I suggested that he should put on his favourite piece of music to help him while he writes his bajillion page missile report due in like.... 5-6 weeks? Probably more.

And well, you realise that not everyone is the same as you. Not even remotely, in the "real world".

And you come to realise that they world that I live in. They world we live in.

It's rather small. And not because we see everyone everyday. I'm all for not having to see the same people everyday. Yea it's maybe a little sad. But I can live knowing that I can just visit my friends, or talk to them over MSN, or Skype, or blogging, and what have you.

"[He] just finished speech therapy for his stammer. What an achievement. You forget that not all victories are about saving the Universe." - Rory Williams.

I'm not sure how many of you will know that quote, but I still think, that it applies to us, so very much. And not by the twisted associations of my mind, but also, on a direct level. Sometimes you really do have to step back, and see that we have come a long way.

I can't really match your post on metagame, Kael, simply because I don't know that much about any metagame to talk about it.

I mean. What metagame is there... Ummm.... Knowing exactly where sentries are built on map X, Y, Z?

Knowing when a Pyro will airblast your rockets? But see, I use the Direct Hit, so it doesn't really matter.

Might as well. For anyone who doesn't know. Sentries are big turret things that gun you down if you walk into it's Area of Control.

Hence, Engineers; the class that builds these massive turrets are weak by themselves, as one of their main weapons is Sentries.

As for Pyros, they set people on fire, and then chop them up with their axes. Um. And they can reflect the rockets that I shoot out of my Rocket Launcher, because I play the Soldier. Kinda a weird game, I must say.

Any metagame that results would be, me knowing where those guns are, and then staying out of their area before shooting them down at a distance. And against Pyros, I'm already using a Rocket Launcher which is almost impossible to deflect: The Direct Hit. Cause the rockets travel 80% faster, most Pyros can't do much about it.

Quick aside for people who play: The Liberty Launcher DOESN'T go as fast as the Direct Hit. Just saying. I hate it when people think that. Cause it doesn't.

That said, it's also just as good at anti-airblast, if a little less effective.

That's all I can talk about for metagame in TF2 though. I mean... what else is there?

Oh, besides knowing that a certain Spy will be using the Dead Ringer. Screw that.

Speaking of which, practice makes perfect. A week ago, I doubt I would have been able to airshot people, or juggle them. And now, look at me. I can do that kind of thing once in a while with the Direct Hit.

I think I'll talk a little more about the Song.

I hope I never have to choose between two people I love. I suppose one of the problems of being (half) human (half robot) is that we have too much choice, and when faced with such a choice, we try not avoid it, and just *not* choose.

But how would you choose? The love of your life, or the person most precious to you?

As odd as it sounds, they're not that same thing.

Really, it's divergence of similar things.

And what if one of them wanted you to choose the other? What could you do?

What would you do?

Of course, for most of us, this requires a bit of sympathy, but oddly enough, I can empathize.

And without going too much into my personal life, because it is quite *personal*, I just wonder how other people would choose, given that choice.

Or perhaps, not at all.

What would you do?

Similarly, most problems come because of a lack of understanding. Perhaps, people will never accept that there is no other way to solve a situation, or perhaps, people don't want to.

This does apply to leaders, too, but I suppose that's just how it is, huh?

Do we live in a democracy, or a meritocracy mixed with aristocracy?

I don't know.

Ah...well. I don't think there's anything else I need to talk about for now, hm?

Just think about your life, and others' and, about their choices, as compared to your own.

Make your own sandbox.

Think.

Dream.

Hoping you do.

What's going on today?

"Song of my life"

Well. I can't compete with DL with his epicly long posts, because I don't really feel up to it, really.

There's nothing much I can talk about either, except maybe Ali, but not everyone knows, so I won't.

Or I could talk about conversation, but everyone knows my incredibly stupid rhetoric on it.

More or less: Just talk to them, damnit.

It might be hard, but it's worth it.

Listening to other peoples' problems is always very sad, mostly because I'm so helpless, and also, partly that I don't want to get involved, and that makes me even more guilty.

Maybe I'll talk a little about Happiness, given that when I read Kael's post, a few minutes ago, I immediately thought of a conversation earlier today, and how the song of my life, really is that.

It's just that one song which resonates so heavily, and I wonder what my fate is.

What makes me happy?

Material possessions, sure. I'm not ashamed of that.

What really makes me happy?

Certainly not travel. Certainly not sight-seeing.

Yea, I'm *meant* to like that kind of thing. But I believe that there's something worth being happy about.

Friends. Family. People.

Do you know why I write? Do you know why I worry?

Because they are dear to me. Because if I can make it better for them, then I'm happy. I don't mind what their request is. I don't mind what they ask. If I can answer it, if I can help, then I will.

"But Neku! That's not like you!"

Is it?

Back on writing. Writing is a way to play around with the world around me. It's my sandbox, if you will. And if you won't, then just note that it's a medium with which I can flesh out ideas about people, things, places, times, and really, it's an escape from my reality. Certainly, the same applies to studying, and also to gaming.

What's so horrible about reality?

Nothing. But everyone likes a little imagination from time to time, yes?

I once said that "I don't think I'll ever be happy."

And looking back on that, I have to say, that I am, happy, sometimes. But those times are fleeting.

I still wonder about my fate, and my future, but really, what's the point of worrying, right?

There are other people to worry about. People I don't see every day. People who probably don't feel the same way as I do.

People who I care about, so very much.

People I love.

I don't care about countries. I don't care about leaders. I care about the person behind all those decisions.

In that regard, I don't think Julia Gillard is a liar, in that sense. She's just being realistic. And it leaves a bitter taste, I'm sure. But we're just too idealistic. Sometimes, you have to remember that they are trying to lead, to the best of their ability, with as many people's interests in mind as possible.

Back to happiness. What makes *you* happy?

Will you ever be happy?

Will I ever compete with Kael for post length? Probably not. I'm trying to, mind you, but will probably wrap up here, because a friend wants me to play TF2 with them.

But see, is it bad that I have so many friends that I've never met in real life? Perhaps we'll touch on belonging for a second.

I don't use Facebook much, and yet, have quite a few "online" friends. They're not faceless. They're not nameless. And I trust all of them to some extent. Mostly because I know who they are.

And which has been more reliable? "Real" friends, or "online" friends? Well.

The number of "Real" friends betraying me has been more than "online" mostly because with the latter, people just forget, instead of saying mean things, and leaving.

Belonging: In an age of increasing globalisation and communications, are people belonging? Are people really connecting? Why not? Is it because they've forgotten?

I think I'll leave it there.

Hoping Kael reads it. =3

Maths, maths, more maths.

"Doctor.

Who?"

I can't believed they used that really really old joke. It's been there since the beginning of the first series.

*shrug*

I really wanna watch the next ep. though =O

Anyway, today was just gaming, and math, and more gaming.

Got me a strange Direct Hit, it's now got 3 kill ranks on it ^^

Anyway. There this weird circle question. Dandelion, Bitter, Vege Eater, can you do it? D=

And yea.

Hoping you guys had fun.

600 Posts, + Outing + Trying not to make you jealous + Various things

"Are there any birds in there?"

Found a bird's nest today, fretting mostly in the morning about whether people would go to the outing.

Also, it's kinda...annoying that I have to answer so many questions.

The reason why I'm vague about almost everything is because I don't like answering questions, it means that I have to commit to my answer.

Ah well. Such is my griping.

I probably was going to say more, but I'm annoyed, and annoyed on the verge of angry, but not quite.

So I'll just listen to music, do math, and play TF2.

I hate it when I hear problems in other people's lives and I can't do anything about it. But that's just how life is I suppose.

I'll go do some isolation therapy. Ugh.

Hoping I get better soon.

Problems.

"Uhm... Guys?"

I can't make the Friday thing. Things have changed >_<

Sorry.

On a lighter note, I'm gonna be assuming that everyone except Kael and Renee are going to the Sat one.

Hoping you guys all have had an excellent holidays so far.

A day of Learning, and Exhaustion.

"Uhm...if you say so...?"

Well, ok, a few things.

Real show of hands of who's going to the Sat thing, bowling? Cause if no-one wants to go, what's the point?

Should be doing math.

Need to upload a few things.

Tired after swimming.

Can't talk, too busy listening to vital organs shutting down.

Just kidding. But I really am tired.

Hoping you guys do tell and whatnot. Seems like such a mismash.

Surprising.

"Where does Toan Daxland come from?

.... It's...his name."

Yea. Um...

Now, a show of internet hands of who's coming to the bowling outing?

Well...

Castle Hill is close for everyone. Chatswood is hard for lots of people to get to, I think....

Yea. That's all I wanted to say, as well as getting back to parity with my blog dues.

Hoping you guys can all come. That includes you, Candid.

1 day behind, in posts.

"Maybe I'll do a double post today."

Learning projectile motion has never been so fun! Just do it in your head while you spray them with Needles!

Or not, cause I don't play combat Medic very well.

Uhm. Ok. Might do a double post today, if I can be bothered. Otherwise no.

We're going Castle Hill AMF Bowling; Looking up the prices *right* now.

http://www.amfbowling.com.au/Centres/NSW/AMF-Castle-Hill.aspx?LocationAndPrices

Take a look for yourself, but I think we could... pay for 3 games, that's $22.90 per person, and then go from there. It's a tad expensive, so I don't know >_<

Probably ok though. What do you guys think?

I had a look at their "special offers" and it didn't have anything that suited us. Unless you guys can/want to pay online. Cause then it costs significantly less.

Hoping you guys say something =3

Ack. Forgot about yesterday, sorry.

"I-I have an excuse!"

Ok. Uhm, I was wrong, Renee, we might have to just leave you behind =S

Because more people want weekends, and that's the only weekend and stuff like that.

Uhm....

Sorry about yesterday's post, I really do have a decent excuse.

That is, I was playing TF2, and then, long story short, because I want to get back to the blog outing, I made friends with a bunch of people, by "accident", and then I totally forgot about blogging, and instead, I was practicing soldier against scout, and getting a Scottish Resistance for my Demo.

Which does mean that I'm going to be "maining" Soldier, but no-one cares.

Moving on.

Blog Outing:

I Promise, I'll research Castle Hill Bowling, how much it'll cost.

For now, we want this thing on in the afternoon straight after Lunch, yea? Say... 1-2PM? And then until about 4-5? Because Lunch is expensive, and I'd prefer to stay at home and cook up something, quickly.

Uhm.

I'll provide you guys with a map, and where we're meeting and whatnot? Idk.

We'll uhm... Meet outside the doors of the bowling place? (Never seen it, but I'm assuming it has doors.)

Hoping you guys love the idea. Also, Candid/Candied, you are coming, right...? It's one weekend off, I don't know how bad things are, but I'm going to be pushing you to come, until you tell me that there is no way that you can make it.

(Get better soon, preferably before Sat, but no pressure =3)

As promised....

"Ok, here are the dates!"

25th Sun
26th Mon
1st Sat
3rd Mon
4th Tues

Tell me what's the best for you guys. Personally would prefer the Sat (1st), but ok.

Bowling at Castle Hill, ok? Though, do we just rock up and pay? I really don't wanna have to call them up >_<

Hoping you guys love the idea.

(I think 25th Sun is too early. Haha. It's tomorrow.)

Outing Outing Outing.

"Ok."

Uhm...

I can't remember what dates/too lazy to do it atm, but if no-one has any qualms, let's do...

BOWLING.

Ok?

The only bowling place I know used to be Top Ryde, but... there might be another bowling place.

AMF, yes? Yes.

Hoping you guys like it.

WARNING WARNING: BLOGSPHERE OUTING

"Exams are over."

Ok, guys.

People who are reading this and are slightly interested/bored over the holidays.

WE ARE HAVING AN OUTING.

Yes, yes we are.

Now, where we're going, is undecided, but first, let's think of a day.

I'm crossing off Sundays, because I care about you religious people.

I'm also crossing off the Friday of the first week, cause stuff's happening then.

So to quickly recap this short bit:

Who: Anyone who's reading this.
When: Sometime in the next two weeks.
Where: Who knows? Probably Macquarie for ice skatings and lunchies.
Why: For the hell of it.

And the what is obvious.

Ok, so questions, and suggestions, and times you can't make it, email, or drop a comment.

Hoping you guys love the idea.

Dargh Argh Chem.

"Alumina...."

Y'now, I wrote down Alumina was a Covalent Network, even though I WROTE DOWN ALSO THAT YOU USE ELECTROLYSIS TO EXTRACT ALUMINIUM.

FML.

*sigh*

Not much I can do.

So, who's up for a blog outing?

Hoping you guys did well. Also, BIO IS OUR LAST EXAM YAY.

Feel like such a boss.

"Articles published this month: 23"

Yea....

I think that's the culmination of about 3 term's worth of work, and whatnot, that I just put online, *after* any assessments are over, so I avoid any allegations of plagiarism.

So it is, "all my own work"

I'm thinking, after the results of a few competitions come out, I'll upload 4 more, and then....well.

Whatever else I need.

Right now, it's just greed. I have no idea what I'm going to spend my $12 (An entire $12!) on. So...yea.

Could buy some TF2 stuff...but...idk.

*shrug*

Whaaaaaaaatever.

Hoping you guys are having fun.

Yearly Maths....

"Uhm........er....."

Ok, I kinda take it all back.

1.5 hours to do a test which probably was a 2hr test to begin with...?

Talk about selective pressures >_<

That is all.

Hoping you guys did reasonably well, given that you missed a few questions. =/

Problems...

"Maths, chem, maths..."

Yea...

I hope all the studying has helped me.

I should be able to do this test reasonably well, and then last up is Chem...........

Uhmm...Yea.

Hoping we all do very well.

Who knew...

"Running is the hardest thing in my entire life." - Lol.

Ahem.

3U Mathematics.

C'mon guys, you can do it!

Just learn that parametrics well, and you're sure to do well!

On a side note, I need to get better at circle geo.

*chuckles*

Whatever.

See you on the other side. Oh, oh. CHEM. Omg. There is...nothing I need to *learn* per se, except for formulating a clear and effective response. Currently, I'm going with the shotgun method, which is, scribble down *everything* that's relevant. I'll hit the target, just not with precision.

Burning up in hell.

"You're so much like a cat."

Well. That's all I can say, I guess.

Haha.

Hoping you guys do well in Math, eh?

I swear...

"OK, I'm gonna make a massive list of stuff I need accomplished in the 2 week holiday, 1 week from now, and I AM GOING TO DO IT ALL."

Yes.

Not time wasting, I haven't got enough of it, anyway.

*Shrug*

3U MATH STUDYING, GO.

Then Chem, and then Bio.

Pssht. Bio. Low priority, dropping it, probably.

Hoping you all have a nice 3 day weekend too. Or if not, GL with tests.

Oops...

"Understanding..."


Ok, so I technically used the word "understanding" but only within "misunderstanding", so I don't know if I addressed the *entire* English 2U question.

Argh.

I think that means like, a 14 now >_<

I hope I did show my understanding, except, I just didn't use the word, understanding >_>

Hoping I don't get a fail.

Who knows, eh?

"How did you guys go for Lear/Othello?"

I pretty much just adapted what I had to the question.

Which is nice.

But I had 1-2 minutes spare.

So I'm like =(

And I'm hoping for 17-19, probably.

At least, I finished though, I guess.

With a fleshy intro and conclusion.

Time to tie up a few loose ends...need to type up 800 words for something, and then to finish up studying for Physics.

I have about 2 more hours today, cause no swimming. Parents wanted to cancel it cause of exams.

Speaking of which, GL to all those people doing PD. Sounds tough >_<

Hoping you all do well.

Serious business.

"I'm thinking...........amnesia."

It's rather overdone, but I'm wondering about it as a new story idea.

I'll research it later.

Time to go memorise English.

Hoping to see you all tomorrow.

2U Math is tomorrow.

"2U - Piece of Cake"

That's all we should be worrying about, aye?

Aye.

Hoping we all do well. It *is* easy.

Nya nya nya~

"Nya nya nyan!"

It's another Vocaloid song, but this one is sooooooooo much better.

I'm really jelly of the art style, but as we all know, I can't sing, or draw.

Though, I'm working on the singing, really. I got asked to do a duet, by a friend (And yet again, I haven't met them in real life, so don't ask, alright?)

The drawing...I promised two of my friends...maybe three that I'd try it. But after yearlies...

Hoboy, I realised that I have a lot of things to talk about today.

Maybe I'm just feeling talkative.

That is; let's make a list.

1) Let's bring up Second Skin again.
2) Then let's bring in Navigating the Global, our next year's unit for 3U English.
3) Then, let's relate.

Second Skin: The premise is that it's a documentary around the lives of gamers. Now, while I'm not a WoW player, or anything of the sort I *do* play online games. While the vast majority of audiences might say "Fufufu. They're so stupid for being addicted to gaming, and finding people through games.", I wonder why it is that people say that.

Not that I've met anyone through a game. Nah. I prefer writing sites.

People are so much more sensible, when you see how they write, and they're not flaming their heads off and whatnot.

Brings me to my second point:

Navigating the Global.

I was having a discussion with my tutor (Yes, I have an English tutor. No, I didn't want it initially. Yes, it's not that bad.) about Navigating the Global, and a question came up:

"The world has become more interconnected. But...are people really connecting? Why? Why not? Is it because they're scared? Because they rationally don't want to? Or because they've forgotten how to connect?"

And I wonder if it's the same for me. Or whether, by some weird twist, I'm...different?

Inhuman?

Variations, variables?

Why is it that I feel like I can trust some of these people who I've never met in real life before, and yet, I can't trust a great deal of people who I've met in person? (Emphasis on SOME. Not all.)

Sometimes I wonder why I care so much. Is it a bad thing?

Is it because I'm the eldest, and it's been instilled into me, that I should take care of everyone else?

For instance, someone very dear to me, yet I've never met them in real life, and as an aside, their photos make them look like they're 20, but she's actually 16. And two months older than me.

Person C

1) They're really fun to talk to
2) I trust them quite a fair bit, maybe because they trust me, maybe because we can't hurt each other with spreading secrets, maybe....maybe something.
3) Like a lot of people they're seeking understanding, and apparently, there aren't maybe people where they're at, that can give them that.
4) Like me, they took up writing seriously as a way to vent their anger and whatnot.
5) Like me, they have constant nightmares.
6) They taught me that even if your past is abusive, a broken family, failed suicide attempts, self-harm, it doesn't matter so long as you prepare yourself for the future. Tomorrow will be special yesterday was not.
7) They taught me that human beings are complex, and that not every religious person takes it up because they need purpose in life.
8) They taught me to be careful of my own emotions.

There you go Harvard. Two nice pieces of music for you.

Now to finish up studying some stuff....2U math.

I think this is all I really need to say for today. I wonder what your take on this really is.

Hoping we all do well throughout the next 2 weeks. Don't get sick! It's Spring. Ie; Time when I get sick, and you guys don't. I *am* a "Wintermelon"

Do I care too much?

"Due to the yearlies, the people who are important to me...well. They're gonna have to be mentioned later."

Today....Kyo wa...

Well, nothing really happened today.

Except talking with friends, and doing maths, and physics, and chemistry.

My father has notes from Uni which he handed down to me. Which is *really* cool, cause Chem is...well. I like it, a lot. If I could do only Chem, English and Maths in year 12, I'd be set, I think.

As it is, I also have to do Physics, which isn't too bad; I can do everything *really* well, minus Cosmic Engine. It only vaguely makes sense to me, and only because scientists are really boring.

Concepts over people, in science.

People over concepts, in real life.

What am I supposed to believe?

What do I believe?

Who am I?

What am I?

Why am I here?

That, is the question. Not whether I should live or die.

Living was never in the question to begin with, yes?

Yes.

Hoping we all ace 2U math. 100% guys. If only you get 100% in this test.......You can make...something. Idk.

Meltdown.

"Warning, warning, Nuclear Reactors!"

I hope you enjoy that video.

Anyway, today was pretty rainy, and crowded...

Also, youtube uses up a lot of battery....... =O

I should have seen it coming. *shrug* With a charger, anything's possible~!

My first exam is Math 2U, and on Tuesday to boot. Double taking it easy!

31/32 for Chem Prac test! Though apparently it's either out of 32, 33, or 34. I have no idea, and it doesn't affect me, except a lower percentile, so...well. 31/32 sounds better, anyway.

Uhm...ok. Moving on.

Person D. (Yea, I'm skipping C for now, cause it makes more sense to use D)
1) I'm sorry I didn't get you something today...I feel so bad for remembering and then, not actually getting you anything because I thought I was late, and argh. I could get you something, but it might be a bit late, and then it's just weird...uhm...I dunno >_<
2) This person taught me that hating something or someone isn't worth it, and it just takes up too much of your energy.
3) This person has always been there to just hear me complain about whatever, and I'm glad for that. Sorry for complaining too much though =S
4) I wish I could do more for you, but that's not my job, it's someone else's, as I've always been saying.
5) They made me realise how interesting life can be.
6) Sometimes I get the feeling that this person doesn't really want to talk to me, or dislikes me, for whatever reason. It's probably just me.
7) Though I probably shouldn't, I care about this person a lot, and worry about them sometimes.
8) This person taught me that to love something is a big commitment, and that not everything/everyone is worth loving.
9) Thank you for being my friend. As well as one I can trust, to boot.

I wonder if the person I'm talking about, knows it's them. >_<

Ah well. Such is the mystery of awesome.

It's a bit like complimenting people openly, but without the embarassment? I dunno. Also, people feel a little smart when they figure out who it is. I think.

Hoping we all study hard.

Standidizations, Realisations...

"We demand...something!"

Strike day...not too bad, I suppose. Did my English essay...and probably am going to do sciences for the next two hours.

Pretty good, I think.

How was your day? Hm?

I think that gaming => Bad for me. In more ways than one.

I played an hour of TF2, and then realised this.

Uhm.

Well, let's make this into a game then.

Person B

1) This person is an Oracle.
2) This person *is* real.
3) This person would probably be considered a best friend of mine
4) We get into light arguments a lot.
5) This person taught me that you don't always need to know what you're doing, so long as you're doing something, and that everyone is different, even just slightly.
6) This person probably taught me a lot more than that, far too much to mention, but probably one of the most important is that they taught me that virtue is something that should be treasured, in whatever form you find it.
7) They also taught me that friendships are hard-earned, but well worth the effort.

Guess who it is, huh?

Anyway, that's enough of it today. This does seem like a nice idea...

I'm gonna go wash my hands.

Hoping that you guys got some study, too.

After much thinking...

"Torture buddies!"

I realise that this post is going to take a *long* time to write, but I have today, and tomorrow to do my other duties.

Main problem/gripe of the day? My essay.

It's got a reversal of problems; This time, it's my ideas which are bad, not my expression.

Which means that my tutor is helping, and I'm just being lazy.

Oh well, oh well. That just means I need to reword a few little things, and ALL SHALL BE WELL.

Then I can study my other things.

I figure, that after someone linked me, that I should maybe write a small recount of my year 7-10 life.

But today I have swimming, so maybe I'll do that when I get back?

As for who I'm "always talking to at school", I have a half dozen friends who are in different time zones, so the only feasible time I can talk to them *is* at school. Why they stay up and talk to me, instead of sleeping...well. That only happens with one friend, and she's a really close friend to me. The reason I don't/can't return the favour, is because when she's at school, she can't talk to me anyway. (Ban on electronics.)

Anyway, for that special someone, I hope you enjoy your special something which I owed you anyway. Even if we/you/I don't remember why I needed to get you one/wanted to get you one, I wanted to, because of a new reason. Because for whatever reason, maybe I'm just too screwed up, maybe because I'm insane, maybe because I'm just unconventional I feel like I don't show that I care enough, or that you think that I don't care enough. Or something else.

I'll have to interrupt this train of thought, because I have to go swimming. Maybe I'll think about it more there.

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I have returned.

I don't know what's worse, a lower abdomen + double leg cramp, or a headache cause of Ammonia.

T_T

Anyway, I think I'm getting better at chess. Maybe just a bit more patient.

Now, about that year 7-now thing....hm.

Well, alright, why the heck not.

Year 7 - Moving in, with pals, made friends with a few people, briefly exchanging ideas and whatnot with Kram and Sodbong, before making friends with ISS Ruse Pal, who ends up leaving on the last day of school. Pretty much a bludgy year.

Year 8 - Not really has changed, except actually making friends with Kram and Sodbong, and y'now cruising through, playing games, not doing much, so and so, not really caring. If ever you wanted to see an immature me, just find the photos and vids of me in year 7-9.

Year 9 - Same old, same old, concerned more about gaming than anything else, which I do regret, though I regret a LOT in my life. Still...Camps and whatnot are a bit of fun, but not too much. I do find that I'm ambidextrous in a few obsolete things like Archery and Kayaking.

Year 10 - Formal, girls, Sodbong going all hating on me. Really, I do apologise for being a jackass around this time to you, Renee, I don't have any excuse for it, besides being an idiot. (If I'm not an idiot anyway.) I did get together with one of the most influential, and therefore, one of the most important people in my life, though she doesn't know it, nor does she care.

Year 11 - After a while of heartbreak, and identity crisis, which I'm still going through (The crisis, not the heartbreak, though there have been massive changes in me, which I'm still trying to catalogue.) I still don't know who, what and how, I am.

Though I did end up during this time making friends with a whole bunch of people, and to this day, I'm still friends with most of them. And then there was the ISS. Hoboy. That was great fun. And well. To most of you, it might seem to be a mysterious, shadowy "Invitation only" group, I'll try to explain it all, over the course of my posts.

For starters, let's start with the thumbs up.

Pretty much, it's an extended joke throughout the entire 2 weeks.

Let's start from the beginning.

"What is physics?...It is a warm sunny afternoon..."

And our first talk is by renowned physicist at CERN, working at/for/around/on the LHC (Whatever you will. Oh man. I love Iago's lines. Maybe that's why my essay turned out like a prejudiced piece of crap. Because I sympathise with Iago. I *know* him. Maybe I'm just weird. *shrug*)

Now. There are *multiple* around this mysterious physicist, Prof. Allan Clark.

But the one we shall attempt to explain revolves around the Talent Night. Where the staffies (The people who lead the groups and whatnot. I'll explain them later.) made a play, and basically, threw every ISS2011 joke into it.

And one of them was an impersonation of Allan Clark, complete with a silver disco wig. And dem thumbs. Yes. Those thumbs. Also, you're meant to yell out in a sophisticated air, "I'm Allan Clark!"

The thumbs up actually originates from his judging a bridge building competition, and if the bridge was good, he'd put his thumbs up, and shout "It's good!".

So, that's more or less, one of the billion jokes from ISS, more or less explained. If there's anymore that you don't quite get, do ask.

One last thing. I kinda want to talk about the people who are important in my life, one. at. a. time.

Painful? Perhaps. But I want this to be a record of *me*. So stand back and watch.

(I'm guessing that's the right one. Because it's hard to tell. But I <3 that song.)

So, person ア

Remember what I said about change being irreversible, and inevitable? If you meet someone, they change you, and you change them?

I think I'll talk about one of my "200000000 Japanese girlfriends", just to keep Matt and whoever else happy.

We met on ISS, though, I always kinda f lt that my Japanese was inadequate, and well. They spoke at a reasonably fast pace, ie; normal pace, so I could keep up sometimes, and other times, I'd have to make do with whatever facial and body expressions I could see/hear.

Long story short, she's important to me, because she made me realise that people *do* cry quite easily, and for various reasons. She made me realise that the people around you, whether you know them very well, or not, still matter, and deserve the same respect, and care as anyone else.

For that Black Ram who was all "Oooh, hand holding", she *was* crying. And I hate it when people around me are distressed, because I feel like I can't do anything. So I did what I could.

Perhaps I'm too much of a "touchy-feely" guy or "flinging my hands everywhere" as a close friend of mine puts it. Maybe you're right. But what's worse, someone who tries to show that they care, but comes across as too forward, or someone who might care, but doesn't really seem to show it? Maybe I'm being paranoid.

I know you don't really mean anything of it, I'm just saying.

Hoboy. This is getting long. I think I better wrap it up here. Right about now, I'm trying to contact my important friend ア because we haven't talked in about 2 weeks. Half my fault, half hers, I think.

Hoping people take note, and maybe think about what I'm written. And perhaps comment. Importance, in that order.

Ammonia + Me => Headaches.

"Brr. Cold."

IIRC, it's like. Ammonium Thiocyanate and Barium Hydroxide => Water + Barium Cyanide(?) + Ammonia.

And the instructions say "Sniff cautiously."

And you know what I think of when I read Thiocyanate? "Cyanide."

Why? Cyanuric Acid + Ammonium based cleaner (Two types of cleaning product) => Cyanide (gas)

And what do I do? I just take a big breath of it?

What happened then to this idiotic boy?

Well, he got cold air up his nose, and a headache for the rest of the day.

Now I have a chemistry prac to do.

I never wanna get hungover. Because I imagine it's worse than this, and this is bad enough. T_T

Hoping I get through all my pracs. Yea? (Listening to this now.)

Crossroads.

"We are very excited to offer you the opportunity of having your short story published!"

Hm.

Got a mail today from a competition I entered...

And seems like I've made some kinda finalist pool.

Which is quite cool, cause I get the opportunity to have my story published..

Which has to mean that I'm a decent writer, right?

(Self Esteem +1)

Ah well.

Can't stop listening to this: Matroyshka by Miku and Gumi.

Honestly, I can't =O

That's really my entire day. Except for realising that I should drop bio. (20/30. Come on...=/) And making friends with yet another suicidal girl e.e

Maybe I'm just a magnet for all the depression in the world.

I have ideas for more stories....but I'm lazy atm. What am I meant to be doing...O.o

Studying, probably. Ah, but children's cartoons are so funny/entertaining. Though my mother would probably scold that they're "kid's stuff"

She's right, but it's still nice to just relive my childhood sometimes.

Like whenever I play Dark Cloud.

*sniff*

I'll stop now before I get too nostalgic and wish-y.

Hoping (Ha. Not wishing anymore. See how much I've matured! ...Ok, probably not... I'M NOT A KID.) that you've had a good day today, as well.

A few words on Revelations.

"Final Revels."

1) Was helping out with a construction job (domestic), and I was playing around with the sledgehammer, pretending to be a Homewrecker Pyro.....and boy, is it heavy. =/

I can't even twirl it around, or swing it as fast without throwing my entire self off balance...

Oh well. I've yet to get me a homewrecker, anyway.

2) Writing is really fun. For all those people hating on Eng Ext, tough. Cause it's great fun.

3) Speaking of writing, I've gotta make my Othello Essay better........hm.

4) And I think I have a grand idea for either a new story, or my 4U piece. It's certainly doable...

Though it does mean subverting the entire "Child Abuse" sphere.

*Shrug* I'll see how it goes, huh?

("Hudda hudda ha!")

Hoping we all do well for yearlies (Duh.)

Nothing much until the yearlies, right?

"3-4-2-?"

I really don't have much to say except that I should stop biting my fingernails, and that I hope you guys had fun at spring fling.

Hoping I find some kinda remedy for this painful finger...

Misgivings and missing.

"Maybe as per normal?"

I...have no idea what to say. Except that I need to work on...

Othello Essay, and Maths, and whatnot.

There's so much work to do.

I'll leave you to it, eh?

Hoping I get it all done~

Couldn't get any worse?

"F.M.L.?"

What do you do when you've been denied access to talking to a friend?

Yea. I don't know either.

Hoping for the best.

Swimming, and grief (ing?)

"Why me?!"

Few things first:

I suck at swimming. Bigtime. =(
Fins are really really fun. Honestly. They're fun.
I suck at swimming. T_T

Anyway, moving on.

Teach is back for English Adv, after being away for like, a month. Now we can learn about Othello! Just kidding, I need to get that essay done.

Buffer week is soooo soon...=/

I feel like origami, but I can't see to...hm.

Anyway, physics assignment needs doing.

LoL Day. Flop? Good? Who knows...

As always, I was the bad, antisocial boy who doesn't care about all these things.

Oh. Still kinda upset for people treating me like a kid. *pout* I'm not a kid!

Change

No, it's not like the silver coins that you get back (or don't) from vending machines.

No, it's not when you take off your clothes, and put new ones on.

Change is irreversible, and inevitable.

What does that mean?

Well, it's a bit like those people who keep saying "He who hesitates is lost!" and "Time and tide wait for no man!"

Though, I really doubt they actually believe what they say...unless it's that Captain, who I shall call Captain Murasa, from Lemony Snicket's Series of Very Super Happy Events.

All Hail.

So I propose a new theory.

1) Every time you observe something/someone, it has affected your life, and you have affected it.
2) Even if you forget about it, and/or vice versa, you've still affected it/you're affected.
3) The reality of which things exist, is only limited really, to your imagination.
4) Thus, if you imagine that the entire world is right in front of you/around you, then you have affected it, and it has affected you.
5) This is a forward reaction, with a variable end point.
6) As such, it is irreversible.
7) As humans require stimuli, it is inevitable that change comes about.

"But Neku, you antisocial kid!" You cry. "What does this have to do with anything?!"

"Hey look buddy. I'm an Engineer. That means I solve problems. ...problems... of philosophy..."

What I really mean is that you can't ever go back to what you were like 5 minutes, 5 days, 5 weeks, 5 months ago.

It. Is. Impossible.

Even if "Nothing has changed", you have, and your surroundings have.

And let's just relate this to grief, just for kicks, and to keep Aereas satisfied that I've talked about death, death, and flowers.

You can sit there, and feel bad. That's fine.

Just know that it affects us, and we affect you.

It's a main reason why I don't like showing people I'm grieving, but that's just how it is.

"If you hate your world, want to destroy it, burn it. Then change it.
If you can't do that, then.
Change your attitude."

Sometimes, I feel so helpless. And I'm sorry.

That I can't do more. That I'm just so distant. That I say I care, but I can't show it.

I just hope you don't take it the wrong way.

Hoping the world's problems will resolve itself. One. Conversation. At. A. Time.

Fishy!~

"Flip flop flap."

Few things.

1. Bio Home Research Thing, 100%, 12/12 =D

2. Bought training fins, so...apparently they're meant to make my leg muscles tank when you swim lots in them. Sounds alright, I guess. From the looks of things, I think I'll try not to give up swimming unless I *really* have to. It's actually quite fun.

Sorta.

*Shrug*

3. Have you guys realised the amount of work we need to do for the yearlies and whatnot?

It's a lot.

Oh, and the weightings are higher?

Also, remember year 6 camp, JM? I do.

Mr. Holling's...[insert object here]

Also, also. Problems of philosophy:

Ok, so I was talking with the Old Black Ram, and well. He doesn't really seem to understand what I mean when I say that "Change is inevitable, and irreversible."

He thinks that I don't understand, or don't know.

He really does treat me like a little kid sometimes.

If someone doesn't understand, why don't you take the time to teach them? Or tell them?

And if you don't understand, then shut up and listen.

Is that easy?

I think so.

Hoping you guys all do well. I'm also Moor or less done for English Ext. Now need to work on a few other little bits, but otherwise...

Stylishly crazy.

"You're gonna hate me...XD"

So...

I only found out today that there's a reflection statement attached to Ext Eng.

And yesterday, that physics assignment is due friday.

I think I should do physics today then.

As for spirit week...well...

It's kinda a meh for me.

What's not a meh, is the oranges that they were distributing. I mean come on, think of the bacteria!

Maybe just me, but I take enough risk already; don't need risk of food poisoning. Also, oranges...I like mine peeled, not...whatever/however they did it.

*shrug* I'm too picky.

Capped, and living under a rock, so sorry Kael, missed the coverage of you (Hey, look, you're famous! Sorta.) and well...Yea.

Also, I'm not really "with it" in terms of SC and whatnot.

What else..

Nothing really.

Time to link to some BGM.

Hoping you like rocky-type stuff. Also, Nuclear fusion is soooooooooo cool.

Perdition Crisis.

"1,2,3,4 couples."

Faggot - Bundle of Sticks?

Perhaps, perhaps.

Either way, I hope you guys had immense fun at USYD and whatnot. I hear there were some ISS staffies, no less.

*shrug* And now, it's back to work and whatnot...

Ah, well.

Still really jelly of all those people who *can* do something, but won't.

I guess you know who you are. I'm quite sorry that I seem maybe too forward in my ideas, but really, if we're doing an entire on miscommunication, misinformation, and its effects on two people's lives, I'm sure some of you could at least put it to practices.

"Mere prattle without practice"

And in the end, nothing really changes, and maybe it's because I've spent a lot of time writing the Othello essay that I feel a little like Iago.

>=S

It's a strange feeling.

Anyway, you know who you are.

Hoping it all resolves. LIFO. Last In, First Out~

Mix 'n Match.

"Moving, moving, moving."

Yesterday...

What happened yesterday...

Oh, right, a lot.

But Othello essay is priority, and then...

I dunno. Not going to USYD, so I hope you guys have loads of fun there, right?

Not sure what else to say.

Hoping it all works out for you guys.

Hate, Change, and Genuine, Shock.

"O...key"

Sanguine shock? Aaaaaaaanyway...

So, while trying to contact Christine last night, I got presumably, Kathy, via msn.

And it makes you wonder how little people change over time, how immature they still are, and generally, how much of a bitch, they still are.

*shrug*

I'm just presuming, but given their mannerisms, I'm going to guess it was her.

So in summary. My night was spent doing maths, finally understanding Complex Numbers (at least, enough to do it.), and thinking about this.

Namely, of a passive revenge plan which included making her fail because she was so preoccupied with hating me.

Then I realised that I didn't know how much ATAR she needed, and then, that it was probably a waste of my time and energy.

Even though passive revenge wouldn't use much energy.

And then, I remembered that hate hurts the person who holds it, anyway.

So, all in all, I'm just not going to do anything about it, because I don't *need* to.

She usually avoids me like the plague, so being so eager to insult me came as a very large surprise.

And speaking of surprises, Vegetable Eater considered getting a daffodil for me.

Makes me really guilty that I'm not nicer to her, sometimes.

(It ended with me just reassuring her that it's fine if she didn't get me one. After all, I never got her anything *cringe with guilt*)

Hoping today I do English all night =3

Hamlet!

"So, it was just a boring play?
Nah, it's average, didn't really like it, didn't really hate it." - Me on the topic of "Othello"

However, I did love the production of Hamlet.

I think, maybe if it's Shakespeare, I need to go out to a theatre and watch it.

It's just soo....awesome!

Really.

Just seems so much more alive, and it's better cause the actors are pros, unlike the shoddy readings in class *shrug*

Also, I've got enough sugar in me to last me the rest of the week, me thinks.

And, and, did anyone else notice that Ms./Mrs. Starick was a stagehand?

Not a prominent one, but she did come out during the intermission, and also, at the end of the play.

Interesting eh?

All good material for stories.

Also, found that, if I write in omniscient, it's a lot happier, albeit cliched.

*shrug*

Dedicating days to studying just one subject, at a time, instead of a mess of subjects.

Maybe it'll work out better. 4U is tough, and I haven't learnt anything yet.

Also, I realised that I get away with so much crap in class. Oh well.

Hoping tomorrow will be reasonably eventful.

Prioritization.

"You know what you're cockblocked by? 1000 miles of sea. Ha!" - Isaac.

He's so cruel to me sometimes. =/

Anyway, JDD, you and Davy are close friends, yes?

Yes.

*smirk*

Also, I wonder if Carol reads this. *shrug*

Similarly, there's swimming today, so I've gotta make this reasonably short. Darned...

So, really, I just need a whole bunch of advice, and I need to study and etc, etc.

I know you're tired of listening to my complaining, Aereas. If you don't want to hear though, there's always the Chen-Don-Response.

A.K.A. Cover your ears, and drown out everything. Take the Sanzaru approach.

But uh. Don't take the Sanzu river. Not good.

Also, I like flowers. And cooking, and not so much death =.="

So yea. I don't think you can classify my writings as death death more death flowers death.

Flowery Death? Sound like a nice title though.

Lastly. 9 Keys on 9 Strings is really nice and chime-y, but maybe teacher will get pissed, and it's really tangly, so I better cut back to about 4-5 strings, each with 2 keys.

Swimming was...interesting today. I need to get flippers.

"Everyone has problems."

Side note: A bajillion couples everywhere. Not that I don't like it. Just makes me go into super smirk mode. Like now. *smirk*

It's all very interesting, and that video is my current mood. It's great smirking music.

Yea, Kram, I don't really like whole genres, just here and there stuff calls out.

Like Calling. (TWEWY anyone?)

*shrug*

I think I'm shruging a lot more. Oh well, oh well.

Hoping to see you at Hamlet! (Or a small township, was it?)

Biota Day!

"Longer posts would be nicer"

Yea, so sue me I'm really really really lazy.

Apparently, if I tried, I could get international calls for 0c/min, which is nice...

But I'm not sure if I should...another phone would be nice, but that's probably not going to...............................................

Holy crap, no, yes it's viable. =OOOOO

Maybe I should ask, should I ask?

And er, stop worrying whether you're hurting my feelings, I'm fine, really.

If it's bothering you a lot, just talk to me, I'm sure I can reassure you, somehow.

Uhm...What are you thinking?

I do not have a bajillion gf's though, as Matt keeps randomly pointing out...

Though I do have a lot of nice photos to...I dunno....JM, wanna trade photos? >=3

Kinda wanted to shop around in the city for cards and whatnot, but kinda figured that I should go home...

I miss my friend, mostly because of time zones and whatnot...when I'm sleeping, she's awake, when she's sleeping, I'm awake, with some time in between when we're both awake, just evening vs morning.

I really miss her. Damn.

Anyway, reading my emails, and there's an ISS reunion soon...

I realise that no-one's written an ISS recount, so all you non-ISS'ers are probably like "WTF why are they laughing so much?" or "What's so awesome about a nerdy science camp?"

So, maybe, if you guys want a recount, I'll do it.

Maybe.

Also, need to work on English Extension 1 stuff...2 weeks, damn....

Gonna work on endings.

So, neutral, happy, or sad ending?

I dunno, which one is the best in your opinion?

Hoping this will keep the Master of the Seven Seas content

Someday someday...

"Chemistry is to-day."

Yep. Period 7+8

Goodluck all of you too.

Hoping we do really really well.

Sometimes all you need is a good piece of music.

"Everything, anything, something, why, who knows?"

"Everyone wants to belong.
Everyone wants to know that someone else cares.
Everyone wants to know that they're important."

That is all for today.

Just something I told someone yesterday night.

Hoping Chem turns out well enough.

Complacency, regrets, excuses.

"Ah....really."

Just thought of something.

I don't think I'll ever be happy, because there's always something else that I'll want.

Sure, maybe momentarily/temporarily happy.

But not really long-term stuff.

*shrug*

Hoping it all works out for your guys.

Time...

"To relax!"

Hectic week, yearlies soon, and Chem on monday.

Gotta submit W4F.

Whatever.

Hoping you guys managed alright, too.

Om nyom nyom

"Death...perhaps...death."

>=3

Yes, well. That's just my style I guess.

Though it's implied death. *shrug*

4U application tomorrow...sigh.

And chem. Who am I going with...what a stupid assessment...

Hoping it all fixes itself.

FML Bio.

"Darg. Germanium?"

Uh...Yea. Bio.

I should study for that....

=(

Art Award is Monday. Did not know. I need to get some card or something then.

=/

Hoping I get everything done on time, eh?

If TJ didn't get full marks in the electricity section...

"Hell yea. 18/18!"

Yep. I failed the home prac, aced the electricity part.

Now, to go for consistency, and to work on practical reports!

Hoping I'm above avg, and that I do alright in chem NQE tomorrow....T_T Chem.

Uh...

"Chicken?"

Chem is Wednesday. GG, I'm so gonna fail, that and Bio.

Not to mention, various other things..........sigh.

Let's at least finish my hw.

Hoping...for rain.

I'm terrible at Monopoly.

"JUST ACCEPT THE TRADE.

no."

Yea, was playing monopoly with a friend...

She whupped me so hard.

Ah, that's what happens when I've never played board games, I guess.

Hoping you guys had an awesome weekend.

Mine's been really cold and flu-y

I don't know.

"Physics is monday."

That is all.

Thank you.

Hoping we do well in the NQE =/

Here's that obligatory post.

"Hi"

Bye.

Haha, just kidding.

But really, I am super busy.

Even more so than usual.

Sorry, thank you.

Hoping I do well in NQE's.

Ah...

"Biology's tomorrow!"

Gosh, it's so hectic.

Also, just a quick question:

Do you guys think I'm capable of taking on 4U English?

BTW, realised something really major.

My stories are like dark chocolate. They're really dark and bitter, and not everyone likes them.

=D

Hoping to finish my bio stuff asap. Then math. Then Othello Essay.

The Quick-Fix

"Instant noodles?"

Uh.....................

I don't know what to type about.

Nothing really going on.

In any sense of the phrase.

Better get to drawing that nice timeline, and then, essay, and whatnot.

Hoping....

BTW, it's Moh-Chi. Not, Moh-Ki

Just sayin'

Wish I could do 10Units of English next year.

"Unfortunately, I can't..."

Let's tally it up.

Writing piece, 1000 words finish it up today.
Writing piece, 1000 words, make sure it makes sense for tomorrow.
Writing piece, 500 words, Perfect it by Thursday.
Biology assessment, Friday, with timeline, and printed out.
Math Hw, Chem Hw, Physics Hw,
AAA is gonna be entered by me, but with writing, rather than art, cause y'now. I'm a hopeless artist.

I think that's all I really need to worry about atm.

The rest comes later.

Hoping I get it all done.

So much writing!

So fun! PS. Aereas, I'm probably going to build up on the piece we wrote today.

Just one thing.

"I swear.."

Anyway, one kinda thing I noticed.

Have you ever noticed that your tongue feels really weird to touch?

Well, now you do, eh?

BTW, Didn't make it into finalists for SMH.

At least, that's what the email said.

Also, Rose picks the WORST SOURCES for this bio assessment. Ugh. What was she thinking... She borrowed two books on the....various biodiversity of lifeforms throughout the historical Earth. Not even anything on evolution and certainly nothing on cells...*rant rant rant*

Hoping, that I get my work done.

No time to think, perhaps?

"Do or die."

Hm. Well, perhaps, perhaps.

I did however, find an 8 part series on youtube, which is a Vocaloid concert. Haha.

It's quite nice thinking music. =3

Writing, editing, assignments, oh my oh my oh my....

Whatever.

Hoping you guys had a nice weekend. Need to get writing that fanfic. Darn.

Where is the upload spot?!

"That is all."

Yea, seriously, where is it.

T_T

Hoping it opens soon.

Bio bio bio bio English...

"Echo?"

Yea...I'll be lucky to get half of it done.

Then I just need to get all those books off Rose. Whatever.

Also, English......................................................man, I need a buttload of advice.

Who knows about writing 500 word short stories?

Hoping someone does.

A day for thinking, perhaps?

"66%"

Yep, beat you Dandelion. Take that! =3

Ok, I'll stop gloating now.

Cause the 4U stuff is...=O

Gotta learn, gotta learn...

Still have yet to do a LOT of stuff.

Siiiiiigh. What comes first, Bio or NQEs?

So gonna fail Bio NQE, btw.

Hoping you guys don't.

Uhm....Nyuh?

"Haha.."

Tomorrow, AMC and...Thursday...and.....Oh my.

There's just so much. =S

Too much.......................

Sigh. And creative and whatnot.

Whatever.

Hoping it all turns out ok.

Two assessments in a day.

"Yea, I know"

Yea, I'm a little boring when I'm not inciting turmoil with revolutionary ideas. Live with it.

Ie; Sorry William for being a boring person to listen to, when he's espousing things everyone already knows.

And, lol physics.

Roselen was complaining that I ditched him.

Ha.

Anyway, whatever.

Time to do some AMC stuff.

Hoping to see you tomorrow.

(Also, despite speaking to some of the Jap people in Jap, it quickly becomes apparent that their English isn't very good, and that I have no idea what to say to them, sometimes.)

The more you know, the less you know.

"That is all".

Yea, well....hm.

All I really got to say.

Also, that creative writing is soon =D

Hoping I don't fail this one.

Nowhere, no where...

"Did I tell you how much I hate group tasks?"

Yea, too much balancing and logistical issues and whatnot. It's really bad if it's bad, and it's really good if it's good.

So...

Sorry, William for being an idiot.

Next time I'll solo it.

Hoping someone understands.

Still didn't do much work.

"Also..."

William, we need to talk.

Asap, find me somehow.

Or get my phone number, text me, whatever.

I need to know what you're thinking with Eng Ext.

Hoping you do.

How boring.

"..."

Well, chem quiz was shot.

And I guess AMC will be too.

Whatever. Got skills to learn, games to NOT play, etc, et. al.

Ha.

Hoping I do learn those new skills.

Fun?

"Yea, well..."

Ok, so I got 14/15, and I'm really torn between playing games and celebrating, and just doing more work...

Maybe I'll just do work while I play games.

Or spectate/idle.

WHATEVER.

Hoping it all worked out fine for you guys.

Hmmmmmmm.........

"Feelin' lazy"

"Don't Say Lazy"? Haha...

I really don't have all that much to say. Though, what was the issue?

Hoping I find out soon.

Huh...

"Boring and gray?"

Yea, I'll finish my physics and english extension today, if I don't procrastinate.

Meh.

Hoping I do.

Wow...

"Thanks!"

A few things:

Apparently my new glasses make me look smarter. +10 IQ? =O

Apparently, I need to do a lot of work. No shit.

And apparently, Harvard wasn't kidding about the cake.

Now, in my defense about not sharing the cake:

I couldn't really find all the people I would want to give cake to all in one place, and also, recess was shortish, lunch was chem tutoring, and no I'm not about to stop a class, just to give cake to more or less random people, some of which, dislike me, maybe because they're jelly, maybe because they just dislike me.

So, there.

Sorry, though.

But Thanks!

Also, might just put this here:

Both Trukulja and Harwood know Prof. Harry Messel. Infact, Harwood worked at ISS before. Isn't that cool? I think so too.

Hoping I finish all the work. Aereas, we have much to discuss, you and I.

But soon, we will be kings. Or better than kings. Gods!

Nyeh.......

"She's dead? What."

Apparently, Amy Winehouse died on my birthday, yesterday. Sigh.

What an ill omen.

Anyway...

I'm at about 80% completion for Physics,

X% for English Ext; I have no idea how much I need to do,

NQE? Maybe 5%
Chem Quiz? Well...I'll find some way to study
Math Tutor: 0%
AMC: 0%, and I need to find practice type questions

Physics Assignments: 10%, maybe.

Ah well.

Who cares, at least I've made some progress.

Hoping tomorrow counts for more, huh?

Speechless.

"Ah...uh....err..."

I don't really have much to say today.

Thank you all.

I had thought you had forgotten, I guess.

EDIT: Li said HB. I'm touched. Made my week, I tell you.

Hoping tomorrow I finish all my work. (Parents lecturing about playing too much TF2, not enough work, and also getting 51% for a 3U HSC paper. C'mon. It was a HSC paper =.=")

Speechless.

"Ah...uh....err..."

I don't really have much to say today.

Thank you all.

I had thought you had forgotten, I guess.

Hoping tomorrow I finish all my work. (Parents lecturing about playing too much TF2, not enough work, and also getting 51% for a 3U HSC paper. C'mon. It was a HSC paper =.=")

Shocking!~

"Negative!"

Ok, time to do work.

See you soon. Tehe.

Oh well.

Hoping people get better from their wet-sickness.

(I think I'm sick when it's really hot, and not, when it's cold and wet. Go figure.)

Just a few words:

"..."

This applies to everyone:

If you're going to say something mean/derogatory about someone/something, don't do it 5 metres away from that person/thing. Seriously. If you're going to do so, either say it IN THEIR FACE, or when they're definitely not around.

Just keeps things more civil.

That's all, really, ugh so busy, did not do work at ISS, and look, a mountain comes back.

Hoping I get through all of it.

So busy, he keeps me so very busy...

"Lucius Debeerrrrrrs"

=D

=S

=((

More suiciders, sadists, wondering why Rosemary's giggling, and I'm so very busy.

Ugh.

See you tomorrow.

Ha!

Hoping the work eases up soon.

Will start soon.

"Ah..."

Nothing much to see here, move along now.

Though, what's up with Rose's hairtie? She keeps giggling whenever I ask her about it.

Though, it does look quite nice on her. Ah well.

(Don't tell her that. I will.)

And lastly, hope that envelope wasn't too bulky.

Hoping I get through all my work today.

P.I.S.S.D.

"It's an awesome acronym"

Anyway...

1) English Extension, William talk to me.
2) Article for YSA
3) NQE stuff...

Ok, y'now what. Screw this. I'll make the list later.

The point is, that, there's so much going on, and it feels a little daunting.

But hey, apparently if you split things up into components, things get a whole lot easier.

I guess that's the lure of planning vs "just do it"

Thought for the day: Is it better for people to voice their thoughts, even racist and bigoted ones in public? If they do, the thoughts can be challenged and debated openly.

But is it worth the risk of offending someone?

Hoping tomorrow is just as fun.

I have returned.

"And not with a full journal, either"

Yea, I didn't actually keep a decent journal, though I have a few details so that I can actually remember what happened, and when.

Right now though, it's getting late, maybe a recount can be done later, but, as it is, there's a LOT of work that needs to be done.

English Extension, Maths, NQE, Contacting so many people over ISS, namely still a few other people like Haruka, Karen, and Jacob.

And guess what. I have to use FB. Grrr.

Oh well.

It could be worse.

Hoping you all had excellent holidays, and are happy to see me again. (I know I am.)

Neku.

ISS

"I'll bring a journal thing..."

Yep.

It's gonna be awwwesome!

=D

I'll see you on the other side, and maybe, you can read the journal.

Or I'll post it here.

SAME SAME!

Hoping you're excited too.

Lsat day for everything.

"Out of date."

Nothing much to say, lots to do, so I'll keep this short.

Hoping you all have excellent holidays.

Failure Forcast: Success

"500th post!"

Yea, it's 500. Sweet.

Moving on, the day's been pretty terrible, but that's probably just me.

I've realised that people tend to forgive a lot faster than I do.

And, also, ISS is really soon, and also a new month: July.

And as I was saying, AAA week? I don't see anything special happening. After the first 2 days, it kinda just....fell over and died.

Oh well, such is life.

Submitted the poetry stuff, whatever, it can just be up there.

I have no intention of winning it, but at least, I have a chance.

Who knows.

Anyway....

Hoping people take me seriously sometimes.

Foundational Failure, Day 3

"Just because I like soft toys... =.=""

Yea...well. It's nearing July.

Damn, it's fast.

Also, ISS.

Also, math hw, bio, and english ext.

Grr.

Whatever. I can do all of this/that tonight.

All good.

THEN OFF TO PLAY MELEE/DEUS EX. Yay.

I guess I'll have to make up for this slacking off during ISS.

As for today, shocked Alex a little, which was nice, and...

Do any of you have a kinda friendship which is like...

One second, friends. Next, enemies. Repeat. Rinse, etc.

Yea...Volatile doesn't even begin to cover it.

Voltaire might.

Hoping ISS will be excellent.

Festival of Failure, Day 2

"No, I don't support their crap."

Lemme get this straight.

I love the theme of AAA day, but I'm not oriented towards RESULTS. Not some wishy-washy crap which also undermines their own point about anti-discrimination, which, isn't helped by the principal apparently, "Queen B" being racist herself during assembly (it's a weak argument, but it stands), and subsequently raging at the people who wore clothes which weren't traditional. (Whether she was raging at the people in uniform or not, is probably irrelevant, and, she probably wasn't. Though, I hope she was, just to add to the hypocrisy.)

So, no I don't hate the ideas behind this week, just it's pathetic application.

I am however, looking quite forward to Friday, which is both when my internet comes back online (ha.) and also, when it's mental illness awareness day.

On a final note, Second Skin, is like really really awesome, and it echoes xxxHolic quite nicely. Which, I'm probably going to have to use in some other related text (read: probably never), but nonetheless...

1) "For any action, one must have sincerity and dedication"
2) "Give up your son. Give up your husband. It doesn't matter. They're outside influences. If you want to live online, then that's fine too. That can be your world"
3) "Quit means quit. Completely. Absolutely."

Time to link.

There is somehow, this stigma around people like that in the documentary, and people are all too quick to jump to conclusions like "Oh, he's a creepy fat guy with no life."

Read: The entire documentary IS about their life.

I don't see what's wrong with it. If they want to live in that world, so be it. It's just like me packing up, and moving to like...USA.

Secondly, I don't see...what's his name...Dan.

He wants to change, yet, doesn't go the full distance. So, in that way, it's his fault. If he wants to play 15 hours a day, then so be it. But if he doesn't and *can't*, then it's really a lesson to all, that if you want true, irreversible change (as all change is), then you can't just dip your toes in the water, so to speak.

(Btw, this is going in the blog post for Ext Eng. No doubt about it.)

Lastly, people meeting online, and developing a relationship, seems to be, quite an...interesting? Intriguing way, nonetheless to meet people. People gripe on and on about how beauty is skin deep, yada, yada, yada. I don't see any sincerity in those words.

Now, there's no better way to prove their insincerity via their reaction to this documentary. It features fat people, driving and flying around, and generally sitting on their backsides, with just a few scenes of any type of healthy physical exercise.

Obviously, the avatars online in no way project one's actual appearances. So what's left? Text, and in most games these days, voice chat. Now, that's human interaction, no?

So, really, if you're looking for personality matches, this is actually quite apt. It's obvious that you can't trust the game's graphix. And you can hear them/read them. Which, if you notice, the way someone writes and talks, is a very good indication of their personality.

Q.E.D. (Misapplication, but I love the term, almost wrote it for my 2U test, very last question, but then thought "Nah, they might penalise me."), though it's probably no-one reading this, just don't complain and go ewww when you see these kinds of stories, because really, people are people, and furthermore, if you don't care about appearances, then you CAN'T have a negative reaction to this.

There is just no way.

People aren't "fat" personality wise.

People aren't "slobs" personality wise. (Ok, well, depends on your definition.)

And addiction is something which requires permanent, irreversible change. He "lapsed back" because he couldn't care less. He just wanted a quick fix.

Sorry, quick fixes are not allowed. Such is life.

Very very last quick note: P-T night was quite nice. Hi Harvard. And William.

Hoping Friday will be awesome, and tomorrow...well. Let's see, yea?