"Song of my life"
Well. I can't compete with DL with his epicly long posts, because I don't really feel up to it, really.
There's nothing much I can talk about either, except maybe Ali, but not everyone knows, so I won't.
Or I could talk about conversation, but everyone knows my incredibly stupid rhetoric on it.
More or less: Just talk to them, damnit.
It might be hard, but it's worth it.
Listening to other peoples' problems is always very sad, mostly because I'm so helpless, and also, partly that I don't want to get involved, and that makes me even more guilty.
Maybe I'll talk a little about Happiness, given that when I read Kael's post, a few minutes ago, I immediately thought of a conversation earlier today, and how the song of my life, really is that.
It's just that one song which resonates so heavily, and I wonder what my fate is.
What makes me happy?
Material possessions, sure. I'm not ashamed of that.
What really makes me happy?
Certainly not travel. Certainly not sight-seeing.
Yea, I'm *meant* to like that kind of thing. But I believe that there's something worth being happy about.
Friends. Family. People.
Do you know why I write? Do you know why I worry?
Because they are dear to me. Because if I can make it better for them, then I'm happy. I don't mind what their request is. I don't mind what they ask. If I can answer it, if I can help, then I will.
"But Neku! That's not like you!"
Is it?
Back on writing. Writing is a way to play around with the world around me. It's my sandbox, if you will. And if you won't, then just note that it's a medium with which I can flesh out ideas about people, things, places, times, and really, it's an escape from my reality. Certainly, the same applies to studying, and also to gaming.
What's so horrible about reality?
Nothing. But everyone likes a little imagination from time to time, yes?
I once said that "I don't think I'll ever be happy."
And looking back on that, I have to say, that I am, happy, sometimes. But those times are fleeting.
I still wonder about my fate, and my future, but really, what's the point of worrying, right?
There are other people to worry about. People I don't see every day. People who probably don't feel the same way as I do.
People who I care about, so very much.
People I love.
I don't care about countries. I don't care about leaders. I care about the person behind all those decisions.
In that regard, I don't think Julia Gillard is a liar, in that sense. She's just being realistic. And it leaves a bitter taste, I'm sure. But we're just too idealistic. Sometimes, you have to remember that they are trying to lead, to the best of their ability, with as many people's interests in mind as possible.
Back to happiness. What makes *you* happy?
Will you ever be happy?
Will I ever compete with Kael for post length? Probably not. I'm trying to, mind you, but will probably wrap up here, because a friend wants me to play TF2 with them.
But see, is it bad that I have so many friends that I've never met in real life? Perhaps we'll touch on belonging for a second.
I don't use Facebook much, and yet, have quite a few "online" friends. They're not faceless. They're not nameless. And I trust all of them to some extent. Mostly because I know who they are.
And which has been more reliable? "Real" friends, or "online" friends? Well.
The number of "Real" friends betraying me has been more than "online" mostly because with the latter, people just forget, instead of saying mean things, and leaving.
Belonging: In an age of increasing globalisation and communications, are people belonging? Are people really connecting? Why not? Is it because they've forgotten?
I think I'll leave it there.
Hoping Kael reads it. =3
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sup brendan. good try, but it only works at 1am.
listening to the song. my fav part was when i could understand the words
actually my fav part is right now at 3:16, when there's a break with a little piano intermission.
lets see...
i agree
i still agree
i disagree, julia gillard _is_ a liar, but in a good way. it's better to break a promise for the greater good than going ahead with it and ruining everything, just because it was a promise. but maybe she shouldn't have promised anything in the first place.
the number of real friends who betray us are greater because we know a lot more real-life people than internet people.
yes, some people are belonging. but a lot of people like us, sometimes, are not. it's because society is structured around an economy, not individual lives. i guess that's because it's impossible with so many people and so much technology.
it's because you meet people at school, university, ... clubs?, and the internet. you don't meet people elsewhere. whoops forgot about church. soz, other people.
you don't meet meet new people while travelling around to and from school/work, or going shopping or whatever.
because on the roads, everyone is a car. you just navigate through all of the cars until you get to wherever. and when you're on foot, everyone is a stranger. have you ever noticed how strange it is, when you walk through a crowd of thousands of people, and ignore every single one of them?
mad world.
The tag of "liar" seems too abstract and biased to me. What is a liar? Someone who's told a lie? Doesn't that make us all liars? Or do people only that lie to the populace count as liars?
That's just how it is, I suppose.
And yea, not everyone understands Jap. That's why I found a nice English sub ^^
Only a few songs have made me cry in my life, and that's one of them.
Maybe she was telling the truth at the time.
Lol, I don't even know what I just said.
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