In Circles

Somehow, I'm exhausted. Probably from.. something. Who knows.

I wish I knew why. I also don't know when my uni timetable is gonna be released. I kinda don't want to know either, cause then holidays will be over.

Meeting new people and making new friends, as well as people I'm not that fond of just makes me sort of... wonder. Or reflect. On past relationships that I've had with people, platonic or otherwise.

It's kinda like. How did I meet these people. And then why did they become my friends. Or how. And when. I mean, it's kind of interesting but... Maybe ultimately useless.

I used to be in a relationship with someone who alternatingly loving and hating. For clarity's sake, some days they really hated me and other days, they really loved me. It was a little disconcerting the first time, for sure, but after a while, I just got used to it. It wasn't so hard to avoid them on the days that they wanted nothing to do with me.

I don't know what to call that relationship. It's hard to really describe it, though that was probably the key aspect of that relationship. I guess there are things that relationships include or revolve around. And this was it. Looking back, I don't know why it started anyway. Who knows. Times have changed from them, and probably for the better.

I'd like to say I'm more mature. But I'm really still unsure.

-Toan.